I've suffered from the illness/disease (it eats away at you, making you feel hopeless) for the past year and a half. I've often contemplated about ending my life in the last few weeks. I go to university but can't say I particular enjoy it. I rarely turn up to university through anxiety and fear.   I haven't told my parents/friends. My friends see me in a completely different light. A cocky, light-hearted individual.    A combination of guilt and comforting myself by listening to music has m