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On 23/02/2021 at 10:13, RumbleFox said:

Ok so not quite sure if this belongs here but here goes.....

 

I struggle with concentration and focus. Like I mean REALLY struggle. And it seems to be getting worse (I’m 39 for reference). I find it hard to complete any tasks and always flit between different things. I’ve never really given it much thought beyond “I’m just a bit scatty and forgetful” but recently it was getting me quite down. I’ve been Googling (dangerous I know) and I genuinely believe I have ADHD. Reading the symptoms wasn’t like “OMG I have a lot of these” it was “fvck. This IS me. I have 100% of these and suddenly soooooo much of my life makes sense”. Like I genuinely feel like I’ve had a revelation the last few days. I’m booked in to see someone ASAP.

 

I always assumed adhd folk were super hyper and I’m pretty placid most the time but reading about it has made me see the illness (and literally my whole life) differently. Just wondered if anyone else had it? Or any stories about it?

 

Obviously there’s a chance I get a negative diagnoses in which case I’m just a lazy shit haha. X 

This sounds like a lot of the symptoms that led to me being diagnosed with depression. Work actually advised I go to the doctors as they were concerned about mistakes I was making due to lacking attention and forgetting stuff - but being scatty and forgetful is something that’s followed me around everywhere anyway.

 

A girlfriend once sent me for an Alzheimer’s test (I’m a few years younger than you!) which I smashed out the park. About the first time I’ve got a perfect score in something since I was at Primary School.

 

You know yourself best though and I’ve no idea what the ADHD symptoms are. Might be worth speaking to a doctor though if you think it affects your relationships and/or work and gives you peace of mind.

 

(I’ve got distracted three times writing this today and forgot to press send!)

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54 minutes ago, when_you're_smiling said:

This sounds like a lot of the symptoms that led to me being diagnosed with depression. Work actually advised I go to the doctors as they were concerned about mistakes I was making due to lacking attention and forgetting stuff - but being scatty and forgetful is something that’s followed me around everywhere anyway.

 

A girlfriend once sent me for an Alzheimer’s test (I’m a few years younger than you!) which I smashed out the park. About the first time I’ve got a perfect score in something since I was at Primary School.

 

You know yourself best though and I’ve no idea what the ADHD symptoms are. Might be worth speaking to a doctor though if you think it affects your relationships and/or work and gives you peace of mind.

 

(I’ve got distracted three times writing this today and forgot to press send!)

Thanks for your reply. Yeah I’m open minded and it wouldn’t surprise me if I had depression, I’ve certainly had periods of it in my life. I suppose hopefully speaking to someone (I’m hooked with a specialist next week) will at least help me figure out what the issue is. I was worried too I had early onset dementia. I’m so scatty. Anyway, I’ll update this thread once I get any news. 

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Thursdays game was a real trigger for a low period of me. Quite literally straight after the game I was getting low/anxious about completely separate things. One of the biggest things I miss from not actually going to the games is that walk back to the car where you can calm down a bit. When you watch games from home, it causes all kinds of emotions to bubble up. 

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18 hours ago, Ian Nacho said:

Thursdays game was a real trigger for a low period of me. Quite literally straight after the game I was getting low/anxious about completely separate things. One of the biggest things I miss from not actually going to the games is that walk back to the car where you can calm down a bit. When you watch games from home, it causes all kinds of emotions to bubble up. 

Yeah me too, and feel ****ing worse again after that shit sandwich we got served up this afternoon.

 

I really hate how much anxiety makes me overthink absolutely everything. Can’t go 2 minutes without thinking my girlfriends gone off me when in reality it’s the opposite. Really don’t know what to do about it and the worse thing is she has no idea and I’m really afraid to tell her without coming across as some obsessive weirdo 

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Returning to work after a family funeral has been tough this week. My mind isn't really in it but these deadlines aren't going to ease themselves.

 

I've been here before when a close family member passed away while I was at uni several years ago. Almost went off the rails then and it's as if I can sense it happening again

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1 hour ago, Bert said:

Today is a bad day for me. I feel like I don’t want to be around anymore. 

If you can please try to put today into context.  You will have spent most of your life not feeling like this, and unless the matter or issues that have caused you to feel like this will stay with you at the same intensity for the rest of your life (which is rare) it is very likely that you'll spend your future years not feeling like this.  Which makes the present time a trial to get through, with the reward of better times ahead.  You may not feel that way now but there are many who post in this thread that have been where you are now and have come through it.

 

 

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33 minutes ago, HighPeakFox said:

Can you tell us a bit about how you're feeling?

I’m on the verge of losing everything. 

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Just now, Bert said:

I’m on the verge of losing everything. 

I'm wary of saying too much, because it feels to me like you (quite rightly) don't want to be too specific, and as a Moderator I think it is even harder for you to open up. If I were in a similar position, I'd probably be trying to deal with everything all at once - so maybe just deal with the next hour, or maybe just the next 10 minutes. Keep talking if you can.

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3 minutes ago, HighPeakFox said:

I'm wary of saying too much, because it feels to me like you (quite rightly) don't want to be too specific, and as a Moderator I think it is even harder for you to open up. If I were in a similar position, I'd probably be trying to deal with everything all at once - so maybe just deal with the next hour, or maybe just the next 10 minutes. Keep talking if you can.

My head is absolutely gone. 
 

I’ve been at work for 3 hours and all I’ve managed is the bare minimum because I’ve just got constant tears running down my face. 
 

I don’t know what to do anymore. 

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Just now, Bert said:

My head is absolutely gone. 
 

I’ve been at work for 3 hours and all I’ve managed is the bare minimum because I’ve just got constant tears running down my face. 
 

I don’t know what to do anymore. 

You're talking - that's a start. If it is any consolation, I've been there, many of us have. I don't know the set-up at your workplace, I'm assuming there's nobody you can have a word with... it sounds as though you're going something deeply distressing - as another person said, wisely - right now is not forever. Keep breathing.

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17 hours ago, Fosse93 said:

This resonates with me so much. 

 

I don't mean to pry but I believe you've recently become a father? 

 

I might be way off the mark but for me personally, becoming a dad was way, way harder than I expected, coupled with a stressful job... I found it hard to juggle everything. 

 

Truth be told I posted on this thread a couple of months back and I'm still struggling, but just because I'm struggling doesn't mean I'm failing. Keep your head up. 

Well my son is 2 at the end of the month so not really recently. At first I found it a bit tough because I was so used to it being just me and the missus. Just want to be the best dad and partner. 

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2 hours ago, harpendenfox said:

you don't have to be the best chief. Just do your best. Some times we get it right, sometimes, we don't. We're also close on a year into the most difficult period most of us have ever experienced. Try not to be too tough on yourself. I hope you find some serenity soon. I suspect many of us have been where you are. It's most certainly not just you. All the best to you.

Thank you. I’m trying my best and that’s all I can do. 

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On 08/03/2021 at 04:17, urban.spaceman said:

Anxiety attack in full swing, yippee

I hope you feel better today mate. I always meditate and put on this, really helps 

 

 

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1 hour ago, DanNDH88 said:

I hope you feel better today mate. I always meditate and put on this, really helps 

 

 

Will give it a try tonight, thanks mate. Feeling a bit better today but the last 36 hours have been torture. Felt genuinely at risk last night. I know I'll be fine in a few days but just getting through this phase is a bastard.

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Ordered myself some CBD oil for some brain fog issues I’ve had lately. Might be a complete waste of £36 but worth the risk if it makes me feel a tiny better. Anyone had any experience with it?

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On 10/03/2021 at 23:25, Ian Nacho said:

Ordered myself some CBD oil for some brain fog issues I’ve had lately. Might be a complete waste of £36 but worth the risk if it makes me feel a tiny better. Anyone had any experience with it?

Would love to know how it goes :thumbup:Heard some positive things but wasn't sure if it was just one of those "hypes"

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On 11/03/2021 at 00:25, Ian Nacho said:

Ordered myself some CBD oil for some brain fog issues I’ve had lately. Might be a complete waste of £36 but worth the risk if it makes me feel a tiny better. Anyone had any experience with it?

I've used both 600mg and 1200mg, I felt a bit more relaxed initially but I'm unsure whether it was a placebo effect. I'm a regular doobie smoker, so that probably doesn't help my judgement.

 

I have a lot of friends that swear by it for all sorts of ailments, I'd be interested to hear how you get on with it 

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