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13:30 - Summerville Boy

14:10 - Footpad

14:50 - Wakanda (E/W)

15:30 - Faugheen (w/o Buveur D'Air)

16:10 - Apples Jade

16:50 - Ms Parfois

17:30 - Mister Whitaker

Just joined the fantasy league - lets 'ave it!

I can't wait. I normally book the week off of work, but fortunately between contracts at the minute so that's a bit of luck.

we just have nothing about us at all. utter doggo!

Christ, this is atrocious!

Di Marzio saying he's off to Zenit.

I saw The Fall at Bestival on the Isle of Wight maybe 11 or 12 years ago now, and they were (and still are) the best band I've ever seen live.

RIP Mark E!

I deactivated my Facebook last year and honestly, it was one of the better decisions I've made recently. Of course, the first few weeks are difficult but once you unlearn all of those bad habits, it's easy and I really don't miss it. I never really participated in it myself, in terms of posting stuff and the like - but the amount of utter sh*te I used to see friends post on there was the last straw for me.

I use Twitter occasionally, but mainly only for news, links to articles that I'd be interested in reading etc. 

I think it was Karl Pilkington that said "Everyone is living for everyone else now. They're doing stuff so they can tell other people about it." That sums it up pretty well for me now, people live through their camera / social media rather than actually 'experiencing' and engaging with life. 

I'm someone who's pretty much bipolar and has struggles with my mental health, and I agree that social media can be very unhealthy - especially for kids. I often wonder if or how the internet is damaging people. We're probably still not far enough down the line to understand the impacts of it all yet.

I was running Expeditionary with the STG for ages, switched for a bit to the BAR, now mainly using the Type 100. Haven't got the MP40 yet unfortunately!

I did experiment running a sniper and a shotgun and it's worked out pretty well. I've always avoided both in previous games, but really enjoying using them in this one, feels fresh as!

Anyone know when any new maps will drop? Surely it'll be around Christmas?

Enjoying this game, especially the War game type. Not enjoying the sniper overkill though, feels like at half half of all players just snipe!

Ranieri interview on Football Focus coming up...

that brooks for united looks a good player, seen him a few times now and always been impressed. 

edit: what frankie said ^

'mon the Foxes!

Sky commentators are so biased towards Durham, Leicestershire an afterthought it seems!

gew on then! had a few quid e/w on tisbutadream too. happy days!

Ditto. It just shows that depression / mental health issues affects everyone, regardless of creed, colour, income etc.

 

9 hours ago, ajthefox said:

Did you find facing up to it hard/do you think you were in denial?

 

I mentioned a little while back that I struggle sometimes but that I have experience of being with someone who had series issues. I feel fairly confident that what I experience is not despression and instead is a combination of a pessimistic outlook/learned pessimistic behaviour and numerous behaviours/trains of thought that affect everyone (self-esteem, confidence, self doubt, anger issues etc etc). I can be very moody, that much is obvious to anyone who knows me well and in particular those I studied with, but even then I don't see this as an issue. Do I know myself that well or I am in denial? 

 

I suppose I just wouldn't want to go and speak to someone and come off looking like an amateur dramatic. No-one wants depression or a condition that has similar effects, but sometimes I do think it would be a relief to know that my mind works in a fvcked up way and that is isn't just my thinking, it's a biochemical process.

I asked the same question myself a page or two back. I found reaching out to someone really hard and very, very scary. Which is natural I guess, as you're jumping into the unknown in a sense. I'm a very analytical person in all aspects of life, but the last few weeks have been the first time I've actually taken time to think about whether the behavior I'd become accustomed to and normalised, was actually normal or whether it might have it's roots in something deeper. Accepting that there might be a problem was tough - ultimately though, it's healthy as if you accept there might be something you need to deal with, then you can actually take positive steps in dealing with it. I guess that ties into your denial question, because if you ignore and don't confront things, then that is denial and ignoring things and pushing it all to the side isn't healthy and won't get you to a better place.

Like you though, and particularly so after actually speaking to someone last week, I'm pretty sure I don't suffer from depression or anything more serious than the occasional up/down days, which I've always had and which I now accept that can last for just a day or two, or a more prolonged period of time. The big thing I'm trying to do is change my lifestyle, which I think will help alleviate my problems and improve my overall happiness. So, things like getting back into the gym (of course exercise is scientifically proven to improve your mood due to the release of endorphin's), doing more stuff socially etc. I've already noticed a change in myself since I made the jump of actually reaching out to someone, and I've begun getting my teeth into the lifestyle stuff and I feel a lot better so far. 

Checking in again. Thanks for everyone's comments after I posted last week.

I had my counselling session on Friday, and to be honest immediately after I didn't feel like I got anything from it. Not that I expected to get something from it, that is. I just felt it was way too vague. The trouble is, I'm a very analytical person, so I want to know specifics, numbers, data - which is a problem with this sort of stuff, as there isn't a right or wrong answer and we're complex beasts!

However, since Friday - and actually since I posted here having scheduled that first session, I've felt happier. Maybe I've just naturally stumbled out of feeling low, as I normally do. Or maybe actually facing up to the fact that I might have issues and arranging to speak to someone has helped - or maybe it's because I just rambled at said someone for half an hour, or maybe all three! I do think it's been cathartic and just basically ranting at someone has helped me, though I'm not sure aside from giving me a release, it'll help me actually figure things out.

I know exactly what everyone means when they say they feel numb - not happy, not sad - just numb or ambivalent towards everything. I, too, have been guilty of sleeping lots and just staying in bed. I'm going to try to remember this quote by Ingmar Bergman though - "Demons don't like fresh air - they prefer it if you stay in bed with cold feet".

Just this morning I’ve booked an introductory counselling session for this Friday. I must admit, I'm pretty scared. I've always had lows, but over the last few months I don't think I've ever felt as consistently low as I have done. Normally I'm down for a day or two, before 'snapping out of it'.
 

I’m guessing most, if not everyone here, has gone through an initial phase of denial? I’m struggling to accept that I might actually be depressed. Maybe I’ve just been naive, or perhaps (sub)consciously I’ve avoided thinking about it, but I’ve never really analysed how I’ve been feeling that much, which is probably why it’s never dawned on me that the feelings I’ve been experiencing for so long might not actually be ‘normal’. It's tough to describe, but I'm sure some of you understand.
 

Good luck everyone, and it's great to see a thread dedicated to this.