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And I can't thank you all enough @stripeyfox @Izzy Muzzett @Mark_w @urban.spaceman and the rest of you...sincerely, thank you. Sorry I can't name you all, but you're all heroes. I'm eternally grateful x

Don't be afraid to speak out. I sat all of my old mates down individually and told them I'd been in hospital. None judged me. They all asked how they could help. I wanted to cry again, in front of them all. The mental health 'judgement' is disappearing. Talk to people. It's helping me.

Sorry that others are feeling like that. Just don't be afraid to tell people, you'll be amazed how much they care. I've caught up with some old mates in the past few days, haven't seen most of them for 2 years, they've been incredible. I'm still taking my meds and going day by day. Yesterday was shit, but today is OK. Thanks to all of you again. It made a real difference and got me through some dark times. Everyone else suffering...stay strong, get help and don't turn it away.

That is a lovely gesture, thank you, but I won't be. I'm not sure the way we're playing at the minute is helping my condition anyway! Thanks again.

Thanks everyone. At my mates now, been roped in to helping cook for about 15 today! The full works. It's absolute chaos and I'm loving every minute! Went out last night and saw about 5 old mates, so it's going well. One step at a time. Thanks again for everything, it really made a huge difference. I hope you and all your families have a great Christmas.

Yeah, 2 just came to see me. Both really nice, showed some care and saw I had somewhere to go. They wished me well. A bit different to the one who took me on a section 136!

Thanks all again, I'm such a mess, but you've all been so supportive and showed real compassion. I hope this does help others, like you've all suggested. This isn't over, but there's some hope. Thank you all

Cheers guys. I've got a really good mate picking me up tomorrow. He's just had a kid and he's got so much going on, but he cares about me. I told him to clear it with his Mrs, s he said go and get him now! I'm overwhelmed by the support from everyone. so thank you all. I've got somewhere to stay, so I can work at the rest. I'm really emotional typing all this. Thanks again. I'll keep you updated x

My main priority is somewhere to stay. If that gets sorted, I think I can work through the emotional stuff. I just don't know.

No, not at all. They've got plans. Just a friend said I could stay a while. Strange circumstances and not ideal, so see what comes of that.

Not sure. Think I can stay somewhere for a little while from tomorrow. No idea about Xmas and new year. Me and the ex were meant to be away for a few days at our friends wedding a few days after Xmas. Needless to say, that's off, they were her mates. I've also been reported missing, so had the police calling. No idea why I'm missing with nowhere to go! Going to see the police tomorrow, as they have concerns over my welfare. Not got a clue what's going to happen with that. Doubt they'll help with housing, it might be back to the mental health ward, but I doubt it. Just a bloody mess.

Thanks again for all your advice and help. Still feeling shit.

I'm going to stay with someone in a couple of days.

Old enough to know better...mid 30's

I don't know. The future...what I'm going to do to myself...I'm not sure.

I'm in the crown. Luton really is the arse hole of the country.

Back in Luton today. Feeling really, really shit. Empty and hurting, really teary again. I'm so upset and down, don't even know why! Sat in the pub, thinking about everything...nowhere else to go. Things look really bleak and I'm pretty scared about stuff. Don't even know why I'm posting this, just look like I'm attention seeking, but I'm really not. Just helps a bit to get things out. Actually contemplated chucking myself under a train at Wellingborough earlier.

This is going to sound like such a back handed compliment, but it's meant sincerely. This is just a forum on the internet, essentially about 11 guys who kick around a bit of leather (or whatever incredible synthetic to make it rounder than ever that Nike have invented) filled with air. You've all.helped me through such a horrible time in my life. The people who created the site, the people who mod the site and the people who read and contribute....Thank you. You've helped me more than you could possibly know. We all celebrated the result of a lifetime last year. You've impacted my life that much in the last week or 2 again. God, I sound cheesy. But it means so much x

And I'm still a piss taking bastard, that never goes!

Tell me about the dirty talk over Junior Lewis

If I didn't laugh, I'd cry. And I've had enough of that lately

Hi everyone, thanks again for all your kind words and support, it really is a help. I'm leaving hospital on Monday, taking my meds and given up drinking, not that is was a major issue anyway. Got somewhere to stay for a week or so whilst I'm looking for my own place. Still not ideal and still struggling, but no point feeling sorry for myself, got to fight through. Meds haven't really done much yet, although I don't know what to expect, but need to persist for another week or two. I think the time out and being able to talk to people in hospital has helped. Doc reckons they can do no more and support from my gp should be enough. Here's hoping. Thanks again to each and every one of you, you've been so kind.

The bald guy sounds hot. Tell us more....

Thank you all again. I'm out of rep points, but I'll consider everything. I'm kind of overwhelmed by the response. I'm very teary as it is, but you guys are awesome. Thank you, yet again.

Nights are the worst. I'm not saying I'm going to take my life, but those thoughts are going round my head and I can't stop them. I hate it. My thoughts are that it'll stop me feeling like this and nobody will miss me. Saying this makes me sound like I want attention, but I don't. I'm just saying it how it is. The good news is, I don't think I have the balls to kill myself, even if I wanted to.