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The trouble is I’ve tried about 7/8 different ones now over the last few years and GP doesn’t think change will do me any good. On the positive I have my 1st appointment at a place called shaw trust tomorrow and they work with you step by step to get back into work and are apparently pretty good so actually looking forward to that as I’m so fed up of sitting at home. I’m also going to some counselling place for the 1st time as well.

Thanks, I don’t need to see the GP I’ve got depression and I’m on anti depressants. Been on them years. It’s only me who can help myself at the end of the day. And to be honest 90% of the time I don’t want to. I did something positive on Friday went to the jobcentre of my own accord as I’m signed off sick and signed up to some trust who help you get back into work. Could take up to a year but I’ve heard quite good things about them so there’s a positive. But as always with my life when I do something positive in my head I have to level it up with a negative and a worse one. So I got paid but I’ve had a long standing gambling addiction and I just live with it basically. Managed to stop for a year last year but just started again. Have gamstop and self excluded from bookies casinos arcades in local areas but as addicts do they find a way. Spent all my money and was supposed to be going out today so now I can’t and I’m just sitting at home depressed as anything and just wanting to jump into a big black hole and never return

Thanks for replying. The things that I enjoy are sport basically, sport is my life. Football and cricket. I love playing cricket but it is going so badly for my team at the moment it’s making me even more down unfortunately. I can take losing, being trounced every week has disheartened me to that as well.

I’m going tomorrow. Hopefully be an enjoyable game of cricket and we can get the W that we need.

Struggling been ill for the last week. I really struggle even more when I’m not very well. Can’t deal with anything at all. Not posted on here for quite a long time. Nothing has changed in my life. I have plans, targets, ambitions just can’t find the motivation to do them or some like passing my driving test I just can’t afford to do. I just sit at home currently, haven’t work for a year or more. I hate my life so much but I’m the only one who can change it and I’m that far into my head that I’m struggling so much to change it. I’ve just arranged to go see a counsellor, I’ve seen a few before and had cbt sessions but they were wasted on me as it was through the NHS and the company Vita Minds were basically crap I spoke with 4 different practitioners in like 10 sessions and it became pointless. So fed up with my current state of affairs, it’s crippling me, not helped by some physical problems as well. Just so fed up with life. Could disappear and never return so easily.

Been feeling awful the last two days. Dizzy spells, weak as anything and struggling to get out of bed. Sleeping all the time. Managed to drag myself down to the doctors but as usual when I go in they were beyond useless. Unsure what it is but on top of other things I’ve still got going off really struggling to deal with it. Feel like death warmed up, people keep saying dehydration but I’m drinking so much water so dunno what’s going on.

Some performance that. To be honest thought it was an un enzo like performance 2nd half. Gave them the ball and hit them on the break. It was like watching Leicester of the previous 6/7/8 years and I absolutely loved it

I suppose the main thing is because I’m addicted to do it. But I tend to do it when I’m doing ok and then it’s almost like I want to punish/hurt myself and go round in circles. I can do it because I went just less than a year without gambling but I think I just need to try and get some extra help and support again

Not posted on here for a while because I’ve tried to be more positive. I just can’t seem to do it at all. I feel so low at the moment, nothing is working for me. Still struggling with my gambling addiction, I try and hide it and I got slightly better because I gave control of my bank account to my sister and she would control my internet banking and just leave me small amounts to spend on my card. It helped a bit but i never really stopped gambling. I’ve recently changed banks and took control of everything again. But I gambled all my money away yesterday and now I feel such a failure again. I genuinely don’t know where to go anymore. It’s ruined my whole life. It’s controlled me and I’ve let it beat me. That on top of my depression is just becoming too much for me. For the last year now ive not worked. I feel so bad just sitting at home but I can’t motivate myself to change. It’s just the worst cycle ever and I can never seem to break it.

Can anyone dm me a stream plz

Thought we played well 2nd half tbf. Tempo was quicker. Feel we Deserved to win the game

Big 3 points

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Pass pass pass pass pass pass pass pass pass pass as usual 😂

Just got back from Sheffield. 1st game I’ve been to all season. I can’t get over how poorly we played. If they could finish I think 3/4-1 would’ve been a fair result. Had a great day and night in Sheffield though, brilliant place, West Street never disappoints.

Hoping this gets to all STH. So my mate can sort my tickets as I’m gonna book train and hotel for it