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Another season, almost definitely his last, in the Championship on what will inevitably be a massive pay cut, or go to Saudi for 2-3 years and potentially treble his current salary? can’t say for sure, but imagine given the direction of the club and above factors, jumped.

It’s not irrational at all to say he couldn’t possibly have done any worse. I was totally underwhelmed by the appointment and more than glad to see the back of him but anyone saying we’ve done better under Ruud needs their heads looking at. Plus with money so tight his pay off meant we almost had literally no money in Jan. with hindsight don’t see the difference it would have made keeping him on, we’d have 15 points instead of 17 or 25 maybe, we’d still be down with a whimper either way.

Nope.

Update from me, I have been released! Apparently I have a personality disorder, though the dr who came to this diagnosis I feel really didn’t do his due diligence and rushed the diagnoses. I’m not saying I don’t have a personality disorder, I’m obviously seriously unwell, I have full capacity I don’t think it’s all a big conspiracy or they’re out to get me or anything like that, not at all, just want to make sure I’m being treated for the correct illness, the dr I had in there, sr Naik for anyone with experience with him, was an arrogant and unpleasant man. I still feel the same as when I went in so not sure what the point of me going in was really. I’m staying in oadby and basically under constant supervision for my own safety from family. Got me on a concoction of drugs and using a flow headset but no joy with any of it yet. Just taking it an hour at a time trying to do the things I know I should do if I wanted to get better but I still don’t. No contact with daughter for over 6 weeks now, not bothered in the slightest.

I was on Sertaline for about 2 years, totally killed my sex drive and turned me in to a lunatic after I had a drink. Otherwise I think they stabled me in a period of great instability, so plusses and minuses. But that’s the same with all of them. I would personally always advocate therapy (if you can afford it) as the drugs are only ever a leg up or a plaster to a wound. But then I’d take my advise with a pinch of salt as I’m in a loony bin.

Well, before I could discharge myself and go out by myself, now I have to go out escorted and am not allowed to leave for 28 days, at least. Not improved at all, if anything getting progressively worse, the numbness is so strange but seems so normal.

Had a meeting type thing today and gone from informal to section 2, which basically means 28 days of treatment, seems strange to me, a lot of people in here think everyone’s after them or have that gone out look in their eye or are wandering about aimlessly, the turnover is really high been probably 7 patients go and come in the 2 weeks I’ve been here. It’s fine though just really tedious sitting about but got a few people I get on with really well and it’s good to discuss each others problems etc.

Update from me, still in a secure unit, they tried to discharge me but it was challenged and awaiting the results of that so I’ll be here at least for over the weekend. I’m so numb to it all I saw my mum in tears and felt nothing, had a video call with my daughter and again, just absolutely nothing, strangest thing of all that doesn’t bother me at all.

Well fair to say hopefully this is rock bottom as I’ve been institutionalised. Fun stuff.

I can literally see a scenario where he doesn’t come out for the second half on Sunday and just goes home.

Aye think a lot of people thought that but they’re together at Celtic so can’t be the case.

Everyone seems to think he so clearly isn’t up to being in a relegation battle here or to fire us up next season, yet we are selling him to a team who are much better run than us (not hard) who will be using him to fire them to promotion this year (potentially) and help them fight relegation next year. Go figure.

Quick update from me. Back at work but gone backwards quite a lot. Slept about 2 hours (cumulatively) in 6 nights last week and think some sort of psychosis came on before I got my hands on a lot of Valium and sleeping tablets which has since levelled me out a bit as I’ve slept. The over riding sense is one of absolute hopelessness though and feeling completely trapped. I’ve never felt this bad in my entire life and just a few weeks ago that was the case but I’m so much worse now. I feel like another breakdown is basically here and has been for a while and not sure how to navigate it, can’t think, sleep or eat without being massively drugged up on non prescribed drugs I’ve managed to get my hands on. Bleak.

I’d be more than happy to play absolutely turgid football and pick up points, I think people are missing the point of my post. Just because we were playing turgid football and picking up points with cooper it was not going to carry on. You can’t pick 26 on a roulette wheel every spin and just assume it will keep coming in because you hit the jackpot twice in a row. That’s the only analogy I can think of, we were literally facing over 30 shots a game with a near super human in goal and scoring the odd screamer to nick points. This would not have carried on, it was as unlikely as me playing drums in the Beatles. We were going down with cooper and are still going down with Ruud. The players aren’t good enough to get enough points no matter what style of play we adopt.

Course results but we were facing more shots than any team by a mile and had someone super human in goal keeping us in games and then we were scoring with our only shot and somehow getting points, added to a lot of in game luck as well. That was never going to be sustainable even without the injuries, i can’t see in any dimension how cooper would have got more points in these last games if his tactics were to face 30 shots and have 2 shots and nick a point because it simply wasn’t sustainable. The anti cooper should in no way be confused for pro Ruud mind, yeah we play slightly nicer football but teams are battering us at a canter so who knows what the answer is, I think there isn’t one, the players are simply abysmal.