I know we're not quite there yet but I just want to say I hope those of us finding this time of year difficult get through it as well as possible.
It's pretty obvious that this will be my first Christmas without my boy, and I'm dreading it, I can't put in to words the pain I feel over his loss, and just how much I miss him, it truly is indescribable.
I'm determined to make the best of it for my daughter, who is sadly missing her sibling and best friend as acutely as I am. There will be tears, but we need to carry on and remember that after all it is only really one day to get through and Ellis will always be with us.
I will be around here on Christmas day and I'm happy to listen to anyone who is also finding it hard, and I wish everyone in the thread lots of love and strength, and a better year next year for all of us x