I'm having a bit of a wobble again. I mean, I've been wobbling since being signed off work in June - and I'm still signed off, though not by choice since around August, when I felt ready to return. The job I had was backfilled almost immediately after I went on sick leave, and it appears there are no other roles available for me to return to, so I'm in limbo, on SSP and just treading water. My employer, whilst seeming quite supportive initially, now doesn't really appear to be doing much to try to help me to return. So yeah, I feel like I'm in limbo.
Anyway, knowing this was likely, I'd applied and interviewed for another role and, despite interviewing well (or so I thought), I heard yesterday I was unsuccessful, so that was a bit of a kick in the teeth.
It'll pass I know, but man things just feel a bit bleak right now. I mean in the world as a whole, as well as my own situation. In one way, it almost feels liberating - like, I could find another job, maybe do something different. On the other hand, the job market seems pretty terrible, and I'm not really overly skilled - I sort of fell into what I've been doing, and I'm concerned about when/what I'll be able to get next (if I don't return in some capacity with my current employer, which at this point seems highly likely). I also don't really know what I'd like to do, so I can't even figure out if I'd like to use the time I've got now to up skill or learn something new.
Just feel a massive lack of purpose really, and hugely anxious about what the future might hold.
As I say, I know it'll pass - but writing this down somewhere is helpful. Hang in there everyone!