I’ve got to say things aren’t good at the moment after a stable few years. Work is all input with little reward, it’s driving up my anxiety and observers of other threads will see I can be irrational about things. Supposed to be at an event today and have absolutely zero motivation to go, I’m being awful to my partner even though I try and talk about it, I can’t tell her how I really feel (suicidal) as I’m scared it’ll hurt her too much. I just need a break from everything.