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I hardly ever post here but I check this thread occasionally and I wanted to share a little story because something kinda good happened for once and its apparently randomness is a demonstration of how things can turn around even when you least expect it. So I've been in various stages of serious depression since I was about 9. I had a couple of good years but in the last 6 months or so I've taken a down turn. I've been trying to find a therapist but it's extremely difficult to navigate the system here as a foreigner, especially when I'm picky about my treatment wishes. I've been stuck in a low paying job that makes me feel like shit. It's not just that it's pointless bottom tier work, it's actively making the world worse and has contributed to my mental state and sense of self worth. But, like a lot of people in my position I didn't really have many options, there's been times in my life where I was fighting to stay alive and my long term employability took a big hit. The usual stuff, big gaps on my cv, uni courses failed or dropped, big debts. It's the tax we have to pay for poor mental health. Making your way in this world is hard enough for neurotypical people but with the added burden of depression or whatever you want to diagnose it as, it's very easy to fall behind your peers. And once that happens it snowballs until you're stuck working shitty jobs and feeling grateful just for the chance. Beg for scraps or starve. When I've had the energy, I've been sending off the usual job applications and hearing nothing. I came across a job recently that looked interesting. I thought I was might just be smart/creative enough to do it but as per usual I had no evidence to back that up and I knew that everyone else applying would probably be smarter than me but also have all baubles of education and experience with which to prove it. Anyway the job was kind of weird, so I wrote a bit of a weird application. I was on the fence about it and very nearly deleted it but my gf convinced me to send it off. I did and promptly tried to forget about it because I was certain I wouldn't get a response. Well... not only did I get an immediate response. They freaked out over me so much that they offered me an entirely different job than the one I applied for, a bigger job they're creating specifically for me with an amount of money that I thought was a joke. It's absolutely ****ing terrifying and now obviously I'm overcome with fear that I'll be found out as a fraud and the whole thing will fall apart. But I've got to just do it and try to fight that part of me - focus on the fact that that something I knocked up in half an hour got so many people excited and they must be seeing something in me that's real. I don't know what's going to happen but for the first time in a long while I feel a little bit of self belief and that's incredible to me. Ok having read that back I'm a bit worried it might come off as self important or gloating and I hope it doesn't. I just wanted to share a demonstration of how quickly things can change and to remind that the only thing that guarantees hopelessness is to assume that there's no hope. I hope everyone is well and keeping warm and that you all have better days coming.

I just completed this quiz. My Score 40/100 My Time 166 seconds edit: that was a fun hard one!

He looks like someone asked him to pose for a photo and then they whipped the scarf on him at the last second and said right lad you're managing Fulham now

What worries me the most is our ability to look to the bench for positive changes compared to our rivals. Not talking about superstar strikers like Aubameyang but look at how Everton's subs changed their game on Sunday.

tbf that would be a the funniest way to end a career

urgh I feel sick, could have all been so different. It always feels unjust when these bastards do this.

**** off NBC claiming it wasn't a handball

Good that the lads are keeping at it but I hope we've got people on the sidelines giving the 4th official such a talking to that the ref will feel obliged to make up for that penalty cockup

When we play the first 10 looking this good you just ****ing know we'll fall apart into a 5-0 thrashing

this is hilarious

Ward looks relaxed

oh bloody hell here we go

Hamza on to save the day!

You just know Ghezzal will try some fancy lad moonwalk in the shootout and put it over the bar

Derby equalised at Old Trafford so it's not all doom and gloom

"Ghezzal, beautiful skills, can he pick the pass... he can't"

We're gonna somehow conspire to cock this up aren't we

Bit worrying that we've not got anything to show from a dominant first half but over all, far more positives than negatives. Passing with a bit more purpose and looking alright whenever they have come forward. Just got to do the thing where the ball goes in the goal.

Need to get something from this period of pressure. If we do you can see wolves just crumbling, they look awful so far

Nice sharp passing, this is good

Spurs losing at the death and now this cracker. Great start to the CL!

10mg valium won't kill you, I take that much on the rare occasions I use it but if you do have that much then I would avoid alcohol all together. I'd suggest taking 10mg as a trail and seeing how it affects you.

I take your point to a certain extent but haven't we got a moral imperative to consider the human effect of any proposed policy? Personally I'd say that if that was your view on labour and unemployment then that would be a very valid reason on which to base your vote.

I mean, even the most optimistic of leavers are talking about the benefits of brexit being long term, after a period of a downturn. Is there any serious forecasting backed up by fact that sees the country immediately better off? Fair enough if people think leaving is ideologically sound and it's worth it enduring some tough times to get to a promised place of prosperity and sovereignty but in the meantime that does trickle down to people's everyday lives, wages stagnate, food prices go up, etc. and that brings harm to normal people and their families.

Always happy to win a most extreme award but I don't think so. I don't want to see Rees-Mogg's kids getting abuse any more than anyone else. It's just weird seeing people outraged over it whilst simultaneously advocating positions that will bring greater harm to a greater number of other kids.