urban.spaceman

They don’t care about us apparently

We’d be mad to sack him given the unbeaten run we’re on.

Haha of course

Definitely an upgrade on the last one looking like Jim Bowen.

Hope they get the full amount and get put in a cell where the only thing in the window is a big sycamore staring them down every day. *****.

Not if she’s rebel scum.

Miscarriage of justice this. https://www.theguardian.com/money/2025/may/07/woman-wins-30000-compensation-for-being-compared-to-darth-vader She looks exactly like him in that pic. She should be made to pay it back.

Honestly, the cascade of misfortune is what hurt the most. Just felt like I’m constantly thrown into chaos through no fault of my own. Losing that laptop, my main outlet for productivity, was devastating enough; the cost is currently insurmountable so I’ve lost my focus, my ability to move forward and financially unable to attend career related events in London. Realised today I *may* be able to get funding from a couple of places that help writers though, so all isn’t necessarily as awful as it’s felt the last few days. I’ve already composed an email to send to the NHS people but went down to my pharmacy today and asked for a private consultation with a senior member of staff. It was very, very awkward and embarrassing but they seemed confused about the whole thing (they asked me who served me but I just said I can’t remember as I don’t want to get anyone in trouble). They said they’ll try and get me out of it so there may be some hope there.

Methethethethehtthert sausage factory

It’s….. Rebekah Vardy

I think we should stop now before we get the whole general chat deleted.

No need for AI mate

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I meant more broadly from the ‘bigger clubs’ like we had Doyle and Casedei last season. Shut up Urban. OK.

As long as it’s a permanent and not a loan. I’m sick of us developing these ***** players for them

A whopping 1,364 votes! He got 49% of the vote.

White smoke from Downing Street!

Technically speaking Grimes is right. Never thought I’d actually say that.

PS - thought I’d share some good news to counter all the misery above. Told my doctor a few weeks ago that I wanted to pursue an ADHD diagnosis. He gave me a form to fill in to bring for the next appointment. I went to the website it came from when I got home and filled in the questionnaire online. The first segment was a handful of questions about how often you struggle with this or that etc. It said if you got over 4 you do have symptoms consistent with ADHD. The doctor took one look at it and just went “yep“. I’ve told a few people in my life so far and the interesting thing is they’ve all asked me really different questions about my motivation for finding out. I don’t know what the next step of the actual process is, but I’ve found it to be quite comforting and reassuring about certain things and explain a lot of other things and I’m actually kind of enjoying just learning more and more about myself. Does anyone else have any experience with finding out they have ADHD later in life?

That was far, far longer than I expected it to be. Apologies.

Update from me Had a couple of glorious weeks in April - went on holiday with my family and felt properly rejuvenated and more like myself than I had in years. Was going to post in here that I was finally doing OK and feeling really, really well, but decided to go to the cinema and have a whale of a time there instead. Should have known that would be the end of it. Treated myself to a new tablet for my birthday in March. Major upgrade to my old one that had been dead and unusable for a couple of years. Couldn’t afford it directly so had to split the payments. Bought it to reduce my use of the laptop, which had 2 emergency repairs during my course, to reduce my day-to-day use on it and use it more for productivity as I try and break into this completely dysfunctional industry. Was brilliant for the first few weeks - they work together so effortlessly that I was seriously productive and making good progress on projects. Then it started crashing. Repeatedly. Pasted the crash report into TwatGPT and it came back saying it was a “catastrophic hardware failure” caused by switching between the two devices. Took it in for a repair, they said it was a software issue so completely cleaned the device and reinstalled the operating system for free, but losing a shitload of my data in the process. Got it home later that day and it crashed immediately. Took it back in for a repair and they quoted my £450. With the two emergency repairs it during my course that would send the cost of the repairs way over what I actually paid for it, and cos it’s an “old” device now it would just make other problems more likely and repairs absurdly expensive. So really I have to replace it which will cost £1000. Then I got another financial shock in the post - I’ve got a FPN for apparently not paying for a prescription. I was put back on sertraline in January/February and when I went to pick it up from the pharmacy, along with my parent’s prescriptions who don’t pay for them, the guy just gave me my prescription and didn’t ask for payment, and because I was so unwell at the time I just walked out in a daze before realising later on that he hadn’t asked me to pay. I just assumed that I’d been assigned free prescription for some reason and completely forgot about it until the letter arrived in the post. Feels like I’m being criminalised and having my character questioned for a complete fluke accident when I was unwell. Then the psychopath in the White House announced his insane tariffs on the industry I’ve wanted to work in my whole life. It’s already in a shocking state - the Guardian keeps coming out with articles about how it’s harder than ever for working class people to get into the industry and now it’s being actively destroyed by that ****ing lunatic. I am absolutely the KING of bad timing. I just want to work on something that I’m seriously passionate about and be able to live a decent, simple life. But it’s like I’m being punished just for trying. I feel utterly cursed and it’s just relentless with barely any respite. I’m back where I was between October-February when I was experiencing serious financial abuse by my employer’s incompetence, but far, far worse off. Any progress I make just blows up in my face. I just cannot escape this, no matter what I do. I cannot move forward. And it’s physically exhausting. My whole body tenses up at times like this and I end up with excruciating back pain that lasts for weeks. I struggle to go to the gym, to go for a walk, to be active in any way. “Resting” because of my back then makes me feel worse because it feels like I’m not doing anything at all. My life is in complete and total paralysis and I have less agency than most of my characters.

That’s the spirit