@FoxesDeb
Just had a birthday party for both my kids yesterday. My daughter is sat next to me cuddling and just hugged her with a kiss. Can't imagine how you feel nor your family. Hug your kids, cats, dogs everyone.
All i can say is, one day at a time and reach out to anyone willing to chat (myself included).
I pray/hope in due time you find solace in your sons pictures/videos and your memories.
Much love from my family to yours.