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After a few years of being treated for a bipolar spectrum disorder, but still struggling with mood, depression, anxiety, and controlling drinking, I have had another assessment by the CMHT where I live. I have a history of erratic (somewhat strange) behaviour, very high levels of anxiety, depression, have had hallucinations etc before, and quite bad emotional dysregulation. Basically in my mid 30s and have struggled with the same things for 20+ years. Anyway, the new psychiatrists are unsure on the bipolar spectrum diagnosis (symptoms are very rapid cycling so not a typical diagnosis) because I drink too much for them to have a stable period to assess it on. However, they have diagnosed me with BPD, and anxiety and depression. I also have an ADHD diagnosis although don't really agree with it. The BPD diagnosis was a bit of a surprise, but does align quite strongly with my experience, particularly around relationships. Does anyone else have much experience, I feel like it is such a mentally tiring condition to have? I lost my job at the end of last year and went to visit my family in NZ, who I hadn't had much time to spend with following some severe illness a few years ago, so thought it would be good to get my thoughts in order. However, I came home to a girlfriend who was severely ill and ended up in hospital for the best part of a month, and my sector is incredibly hard to get a job in currently (ESG in investments), particularly with the red flag of not being currently in work (and my last job wasn't that long lasting). I feel like all my previous roles (despite actually doing relatively well overall) have had difficult patches due to my unstable mental health, and so my network or ability to lean on people from before is not as strong as others are. I can't see how I am going to get a job, and my money is quickly running out; I am going to move back from London to my mum's next month if I can't get something decent before then to afford to live. My life has pretty much collapsed, I broke up with my girlfriend a few weeks ago and am rushing into another relationship, but not sure how I can sustain that without a job. I apply (bespoke CV and cover letter) for literally any job in the ballpark I can do, but don't really know what else to do. I would be happy to do pretty much anything, but anxiety makes it hard to get to that position. I have referred myself to alcohol services in London but will be moving home, and it is really hard to get consistency with mental health treatment etc. I am waiting for a letter from the CMHT to confirm what the plan is, but I have been waiting over a week so had to chase up. I cannot see how this all ends without me being homeless or worse - my self worth is absolutely in the ditch and I can't see how I am going to get some luck to get out of it.

I know this would be ridiculously harsh on Southampton fans but the second I heard about this I thought they should be booted out the playoffs. Not sure on the logistics. They won't be but that would be the right thing to do imo

Luke Thomas is better and I fully understand how crap he often is. VK imo (as well from Daka and Skipp) is one of our worst signings ever. Absolute doggo - wouldnt improve most league one sides. Just to check, is it a real quote?

Not being funny and I get the nerves thing, but I would have potted that black and I'm shite.

Agree with most of the posts on here but he was one of the best premier league right backs at one point. As in, top two or three. Shame what has happened but will always look back on him fondly.

I was trying to do this joke and I thought id get a million likes. But fair we both got aired

God I completely forgot about trey

Obviously I believe you but when you say "seemed", what does that look like? Disgraceful if true

I agree. But I dont understand how we got promoted two years ago he didnt seek financing from a PE firm or something who would put someone knowledgeable in charge. Give up 40%, keep control, save face. I just don't understand it.

I think we will get battered. They don't have it in them

We winning yet?

Ive been calling this would happen for ages. Theres no way its a saleable asset but renting it to Forest would make sense for both clubs. Obvs won't happen if they go down.

He made plenty of mistakes but tended to realise he got things wrong quite decisively. I do agree with the bold, but he wouldn't have sat and done nothing if we fell off like this under him.

On LT long throws, I don't get why we play SO far back. Although he has a good arm, it only ever makes it to our first man, he never wins the header (think Vestergaard won one yday but it dropped at their feet), and we just lose the ball - with them having a counter attack on. Surely there should be a couple of options available. The idea is fine but the execution is appalling.

Just seen Jake Evans goal. Pretty impressive!

Completely agree, but they haven't been know for either strategic or tactical thinking!

I imagine all our managers are operating under constraints we dont know about (senior management influence) - but he sucks. We need a manager who will make big decisions and justify them in press conferences imo. They all tow the line too much.

Legit good goal. Need another

This goalkeeper is insane, but we should never be in this position

Legit good finisher though

Not in Portugal and thats all thats important...

Back to overwatch recently. Seriously good game imo

I dont think i get it all it does nothing for me. Listening to Pink Rabbits by The National atm

Bagsman tbf