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Fancy bully boy to out throw his odds of 33/1.

He’s a bit rubbish and seems like a bit of a bad egg as well, no idea why we’ve given him extensions.

Wonder what is going on with all these drones and ufos everywhere. Can’t be a good thing, that’s for sure.

Yeah the fact his wife is so unfortunate doesn’t help his imagine to the world outside of football.

Proper hero of mine. Hope his health continues to improve.

We’ve been blessed with a lot of great keepers over the years but he has to be bang up there with the best of them, hard to say he’s the best keeper in the league but I honestly wouldn’t swap him for any other goalkeeper in the world.

Anyone got any ideas how I can get through all this? I’m teetering.

I’d practiced controlled drinking for 4 months, couple of pints a week at most, never more than 3 beers at a time even at parties and social events, after being in denial over a serious drinking issue for years. My life has completely unravelled, I can’t stop drinking and I’ve lost my daughter and I’m just a bit of a mess. All my friends were in a different city, my entire life was in Notts and pretty much just lived through my partner, I put all my heart and soul into our relationship for 5 years, had a breakdown and was just completely abandoned instantly and did it all on my own getting back to normal, but with a resentment growing in me and on medication that wasn’t agreeing with me. It was always going to end after I was abandoned when I needed my partner most it’s just a lot to get my head round, back in a spare room at my mums house and just feeling worse than I’ve ever felt, missing my daughter so much and for some reason really missing my pathetic excuse for a partner. Just very, very sad and really, really struggling.

Just got myself in to a downward spiral and can’t seem to shake it. Had enough.

Spent 6 weeks trying to get my head around everything that has happened and I just can’t.

Unfortunately we are abysmal.

Don’t think that will happen, just that the level at which he could come back to will continue to decline. Even if he didn’t take a job for 10 years a championship team would take him on.

The dark tower. Apparently the guy who did midnight mass is signed on to do some multi series epic but I’ll believe that when I see it. It’s had so many grandiose plans to be made over the years and somehow they shat out some 90 minute abomination with idris Elba a few years ago and that’s been your lot so far. Look forward to them doing it properly one day as it’s by far my favourite literature series.

Definitely agree that everything is relative, there are homeless people who have lost it all for example who are so much worse off than I am. But the reality is I’m clinging on by my finger nails at the minute and I know what I’ve got to do to get better the pain is just so constant and over whelming that I can’t even begin to think straight. Just getting through a day is an achievement in itself at the minute.

So to expand on this a bit now I’ve calmed down a bit. Start at the start. I had a breakdown 5 months ago, basically don’t remember 2-3 days and went missing. It was awful and I struggled a lot in the aftermath with what I’d put the people closest to me through. I got all the help you’d need in a time like this, crisis team, gp support, wellbeing for my drinking and therapy booked in. For the first 2 days my partner was amazing, so helpful explaining things to all the different doctors as I was still not myself at all, very reassuring and I was so happy I was still here and had such good support around me and though it would be a long road, I would be alright if I just took the time to get better. then 3 days later my partner wouldn’t even look at me, straight up would leave the room when I went in to it, and I was still so vulnerable and couldn’t understand it, she said she just didn’t know how to be around me. She was so cold, so i left to stay with my mum for a while, but had to go back home before I wanted to as all the support I had set up was in a different city. When I got back it was if everything was back to normal, she just behaved like nothing had happened and I didn’t know what to make of it. I ended up going against all medical advise and went back to work 2 weeks later, way too soon, because she said we’ve gotta get back to how we were. So I went back to work, doing dad duties and supporting her with how much she was struggling with it all. She just kept saying she didn’t feel the same about me anymore, and she was too busy to support me and how embarrassing the whole thing was. She just went about things like everything was fine and clearly they weren’t. Basically every bit of progress I made while trying to get through this she would put a stop to by making me feel completely responsible for everything that happened. This carried on until I absolutely blew up about a month ago because so much resentment had built up in me about how badly she had let me down. It’s only now I’m with supportive people around me they have made me realise that really all I did was try and support her even though I was the one that had the breakdown, and she has consistently belittled, neglected and emotionally abused me since. Imagine if I was the woman is what a lot of people say, and the bloke behaved to the woman like that. Really made me think. Anyway she’s getting on with life like nothings happened because that’s just what she does, meanwhile I’m trying to come to terms with the fact that actually this wasn’t all my fault like she had me thinking at all, and I’ve got a long way to go to find my self worth again after being so badly treated for 4 months after the most horrific experience of my life.

Probably go the way of that god awful motd x.

My Netflix is buffering a lot now, thought it was holding up well considering how many people must be streaming it at the same time. Wonder how many people are actually watching this, must be a lot.

Don’t think you have to be a conspiracy theorist to realise musk purchased the largest social media platform in the world and now holds a position of power and influence in the world leading power might be somewhat connected.

Got a picture of riyad in my bedroom, that’s it.

Mahrez

The stone roses - the stone roses Fleetwood Mac - rumours John Martyn - Solid Air

I’ve been really, really struggling lately. I’ve gone full self sabotage and basically ruined my life. Things are incredibly bleak at the moment and struggling to see any light at the end of the tunnel.

Just picked up a steam verified refurbished 512gb model for 319 quid, just couldn’t resist. Not played on pc for donkeys years. Anyone who is experienced with the steam deck able to give me a general over view of what I should do with it out the box to get the most out of it? Emulators etc. excited to get my hands on it.

Pathetic

Ownership is about managing the business of the club. Since Vichai senior passed our owners have been about as much use as Anne Franks drum kit, mismanagement from the top down, no accountability, financially wazzed up the wall one of the biggest cumulative incomings from transfers over 5 years in the history of sport, fans are no longer fans they are customers. Bring on new owners.