Depression

[Trav Le Bleu]

5 hours ago, urban.spaceman said:

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You alright mate?

[HighPeakFox]

25 minutes ago, Trav Le Bleu said:

You alright mate?

Was wondering the same...

[Trav Le Bleu]

 

30 minutes ago, HighPeakFox said:

Was wondering the same...

I'm good, ta.

[HighPeakFox]

44 minutes ago, Trav Le Bleu said:

 

I'm good, ta.

Of Urban really, but I'm pleased to hear that of you too. 

[Trav Le Bleu]

1 hour ago, HighPeakFox said:

Of Urban really, but I'm pleased to hear that of you too. 

And you.

 

Actually my bad ... Craig Shakespeare and Socrates(?) look so similar

 

[urban.spaceman]

7 hours ago, Trav Le Bleu said:

You alright mate?

 

6 hours ago, HighPeakFox said:

Was wondering the same...

Better this morning than I was last night!! Found myself completely spiralling after a very stressful couple of weeks, and with a very busy, stressful and potentially seismic week starting tomorrow, that I don’t feel mentally prepared for at the minute. 

[urban.spaceman]

On my way down to London this morning for a ‘table read’ of an excerpt of my script performed by professional actors in front of industry guests such aa agents and producers. Nervous don’t begin to describe it. 

[HighPeakFox]

1 hour ago, urban.spaceman said:

On my way down to London this morning for a ‘table read’ of an excerpt of my script performed by professional actors in front of industry guests such aa agents and producers. Nervous don’t begin to describe it. 

Wow, amazing to get that far. All the best... 

[Daggers]

1 hour ago, urban.spaceman said:

On my way down to London this morning for a ‘table read’ of an excerpt of my script performed by professional actors in front of industry guests such aa agents and producers. Nervous don’t begin to describe it. 

[Izzy]

1 hour ago, urban.spaceman said:

On my way down to London this morning for a ‘table read’ of an excerpt of my script performed by professional actors in front of industry guests such aa agents and producers. Nervous don’t begin to describe it. 

Maybe excitement would be a better way to describe it 

 

Best of luck and let us know how you get on 

[Lionator]

1 hour ago, urban.spaceman said:

On my way down to London this morning for a ‘table read’ of an excerpt of my script performed by professional actors in front of industry guests such aa agents and producers. Nervous don’t begin to describe it. 

Go kill it, remember whatever happens, you’ve come a long way to get to this position and the nerves are completely normal. Positive outcomes are obviously great but even if it doesn’t go to plan, there’ll be something to learn from for next time. I hate the term but it’s all part of the ‘journey’. 

[Paninistickers]

I'm off the back of a good eight days or so. No details needed as it stinks of humble brag.

 

But goodness me, the comedown weighs heavy.  

 

This too shall pass etc

[HighPeakFox]

3 hours ago, Paninistickers said:

I'm off the back of a good eight days or so. No details needed as it stinks of humble brag.

 

But goodness me, the comedown weighs heavy.  

 

This too shall pass etc

Take care and stay humane to yourself.

[chrishlcfc]

I’m not sure what to do. I’m working on myself still been out of work over a year now. I don’t want to be. My cousin has offered me a job, literally a good job as well but the trouble is I have proper bad ankles. The job is on building sites, it’s not heavy strenuous but it’s regular on your feet. I’m working with a work coach now to try and get back into work but I’m being put under quite a bit of pressure from my mum in particular to get back working. I appreciate I need to and this would be full time work and a regular income but I genuinely don’t know whether my ankles can hack it, in fact I don’t think they can. I really don’t know what to do. Going to have a chat with the person I’m working with on Monday at my next appointment. Proper stressing me out though 

[PAULCFC]

@chrishlcfc...just do what is best for you...give it a go and if it doesn't work then lesson learnt...just don't stress about it........life's to short for that!

[Torquay Gunner]

4 hours ago, chrishlcfc said:

I’m not sure what to do. I’m working on myself still been out of work over a year now. I don’t want to be. My cousin has offered me a job, literally a good job as well but the trouble is I have proper bad ankles. The job is on building sites, it’s not heavy strenuous but it’s regular on your feet. I’m working with a work coach now to try and get back into work but I’m being put under quite a bit of pressure from my mum in particular to get back working. I appreciate I need to and this would be full time work and a regular income but I genuinely don’t know whether my ankles can hack it, in fact I don’t think they can. I really don’t know what to do. Going to have a chat with the person I’m working with on Monday at my next appointment. Proper stressing me out though 

I would be honest with your cousin about your concerns.  Maybe see if you can take the job on a trial basis and if it works great and if not then you know that’s not the job for now.  Even if it goes that way what have you lost? 

[Trav Le Bleu]

5 hours ago, chrishlcfc said:

I’m not sure what to do. I’m working on myself still been out of work over a year now. I don’t want to be. My cousin has offered me a job, literally a good job as well but the trouble is I have proper bad ankles. The job is on building sites, it’s not heavy strenuous but it’s regular on your feet. I’m working with a work coach now to try and get back into work but I’m being put under quite a bit of pressure from my mum in particular to get back working. I appreciate I need to and this would be full time work and a regular income but I genuinely don’t know whether my ankles can hack it, in fact I don’t think they can. I really don’t know what to do. Going to have a chat with the person I’m working with on Monday at my next appointment. Proper stressing me out though 

As @PAULCFC and @Torquay Gunner say, give it a go, if it doesn't work out, it doesn't work out. Maybe try some ankle support braces?

 

We believe in you.

Edited 18 October 2024 by Trav Le Bleu

[chrishlcfc]

Thanks for the messages stayed up all night worrying about it. Not been sleep yet. Just need to wait and see what my work coach says at the place I’m going, got an appointment Monday. Feel awful it’s set off all my negative coping mechanisms which I know aren’t the thing to do but I just do the bloody things anyway. Such an idiot I am. 

[urban.spaceman]

13 hours ago, chrishlcfc said:

I’m not sure what to do. I’m working on myself still been out of work over a year now. I don’t want to be. My cousin has offered me a job, literally a good job as well but the trouble is I have proper bad ankles. The job is on building sites, it’s not heavy strenuous but it’s regular on your feet. I’m working with a work coach now to try and get back into work but I’m being put under quite a bit of pressure from my mum in particular to get back working. I appreciate I need to and this would be full time work and a regular income but I genuinely don’t know whether my ankles can hack it, in fact I don’t think they can. I really don’t know what to do. Going to have a chat with the person I’m working with on Monday at my next appointment. Proper stressing me out though 

 

6 hours ago, chrishlcfc said:

Thanks for the messages stayed up all night worrying about it. Not been sleep yet. Just need to wait and see what my work coach says at the place I’m going, got an appointment Monday. Feel awful it’s set off all my negative coping mechanisms which I know aren’t the thing to do but I just do the bloody things anyway. Such an idiot I am. 

Just to echo what others have said, as someone who has suffered with long term unemployment and physical ailments, consider giving the job a go. Getting out and about is better than staying at home and doing nothing. Have you been to a physio about your ankles? Not the NHS - I had to wait 6 weeks for a phone appointment to be told I do need to see a physio, for which I am waiting another 6 weeks - if you're near Loughborough there's a private one on Forest Road that is very good, though a bit pricey.

[Steve_Guppy_Left_Foot]

I’ve been really, really struggling lately. I’ve gone full self sabotage and basically ruined my life. Things are incredibly bleak at the moment and struggling to see any light at the end of the tunnel.

[Wymsey]

7 minutes ago, Steve_Guppy_Left_Foot said:

I’ve been really, really struggling lately. I’ve gone full self sabotage and basically ruined my life. Things are incredibly bleak at the moment and struggling to see any light at the end of the tunnel.

Am very sorry to hear that.

 

Regarding the bold aspect, may ask in what way (obviously you don't have to reply to this via publically on here, if you don't want to)?

 

As I stated to a member of here recently, please feel free to PM one of the many friendly and respectful members who've been willing to talk to another member who is/was struggling.

Edited 22 October 2024 by Wymsey

[chrishlcfc]

 

On 18/10/2024 at 01:13, chrishlcfc said:

I’m not sure what to do. I’m working on myself still been out of work over a year now. I don’t want to be. My cousin has offered me a job, literally a good job as well but the trouble is I have proper bad ankles. The job is on building sites, it’s not heavy strenuous but it’s regular on your feet. I’m working with a work coach now to try and get back into work but I’m being put under quite a bit of pressure from my mum in particular to get back working. I appreciate I need to and this would be full time work and a regular income but I genuinely don’t know whether my ankles can hack it, in fact I don’t think they can. I really don’t know what to do. Going to have a chat with the person I’m working with on Monday at my next appointment. Proper stressing me out though 

Well in further to what I posted last week. Arranged to meet my cousin and potential new boss next week for a drink to try and confirm the job. I’m still proper nervous about it all but the pros out way the cons. Just have to see how it works out with the ankles but got to give it a go. Never know it could be the making of me. 

[urban.spaceman]

On 16/10/2024 at 09:59, urban.spaceman said:

On my way down to London this morning for a ‘table read’ of an excerpt of my script performed by professional actors in front of industry guests such aa agents and producers. Nervous don’t begin to describe it. 

Update from last Wednesday...

 

So I got myself extremely stressed beforehand with all the organising, sourcing contacts and other stuff. Got myself down to Soho Wednesday morning and had a rehearsal or two with my actors. Then came the grad show- and' I went first. Everything went really, really well. People laughed in the right places and some places I hadn't realised. The 10 minutes went by very smoothly. The actors were brilliant.  Then we had 2 other students having their work performed before an interval.

 

In the interval a producer approached me. He said he really enjoyed my script excerpt and he has a friend who's a producer and is looking for a script based in Wales, which mine is, then asked if I had a copy on me that I could send him. So I gave him my phone, he put in his details while my head was exploding, then sent him the script on email just before the second half began. Absolutely bewildering. 

 

Had a bit of a shit week since then though. My docs let me down yet again making it much longer before I can get help on a medical issue. I was so angry that I went to the nearest practice and tried to register there - apparently it's a lottery because there are so many coming from my surgery, so there's no guarantee. Then my employer stabbed me in the back again, making the next few months even tighter than it would have been. I desperately wanted to treat my family over the next few months as a thank you but it's looking unfeasible for now. And then I pulled something in my back and have been in excruciating pain since Friday that I can barely walk. I have a few applications/submissions coming up in the next few weeks as well as some script editing and spec developing but I just have no enthusiasm to even get started.

 

And then my Masters results arrived this morning. Still not opened it. Genuinely not in the mood for either a good or bad result. Just gonna leave it for a few days.

[Trav Le Bleu]

15 minutes ago, urban.spaceman said:

Update from last Wednesday...

 

So I got myself extremely stressed beforehand with all the organising, sourcing contacts and other stuff. Got myself down to Soho Wednesday morning and had a rehearsal or two with my actors. Then came the grad show- and' I went first. Everything went really, really well. People laughed in the right places and some places I hadn't realised. The 10 minutes went by very smoothly. The actors were brilliant.  Then we had 2 other students having their work performed before an interval.

 

In the interval a producer approached me. He said he really enjoyed my script excerpt and he has a friend who's a producer and is looking for a script based in Wales, which mine is, then asked if I had a copy on me that I could send him. So I gave him my phone, he put in his details while my head was exploding, then sent him the script on email just before the second half began. Absolutely bewildering. 

 

Had a bit of a shit week since then though. My docs let me down yet again making it much longer before I can get help on a medical issue. I was so angry that I went to the nearest practice and tried to register there - apparently it's a lottery because there are so many coming from my surgery, so there's no guarantee. Then my employer stabbed me in the back again, making the next few months even tighter than it would have been. I desperately wanted to treat my family over the next few months as a thank you but it's looking unfeasible for now. And then I pulled something in my back and have been in excruciating pain since Friday that I can barely walk. I have a few applications/submissions coming up in the next few weeks as well as some script editing and spec developing but I just have no enthusiasm to even get started.

 

And then my Masters results arrived this morning. Still not opened it. Genuinely not in the mood for either a good or bad result. Just gonna leave it for a few days.

Well done with the script. That seems to be going great guns. My biggest regret is never getting any material published beyond niche interest magazines.

[Trav Le Bleu]

On 22/10/2024 at 15:49, chrishlcfc said:

 

Well in further to what I posted last week. Arranged to meet my cousin and potential new boss next week for a drink to try and confirm the job. I’m still proper nervous about it all but the pros out way the cons. Just have to see how it works out with the ankles but got to give it a go. Never know it could be the making of me. 

That's fantastic, hope it all goes well