Depression

[Steve_Guppy_Left_Foot]

Update from me, still in a secure unit, they tried to discharge me but it was challenged and awaiting the results of that so I’ll be here at least for over the weekend. I’m so numb to it all I saw my mum in tears and felt nothing, had a video call with my daughter and again, just absolutely nothing, strangest thing of all that doesn’t bother me at all.

[SeCrEt FoX]

7 minutes ago, Steve_Guppy_Left_Foot said:

Update from me, still in a secure unit, they tried to discharge me but it was challenged and awaiting the results of that so I’ll be here at least for over the weekend. I’m so numb to it all I saw my mum in tears and felt nothing, had a video call with my daughter and again, just absolutely nothing, strangest thing of all that doesn’t bother me at all.

Stay strong brother, your in the best of hands. 🙏 

[Lionator]

3 hours ago, Steve_Guppy_Left_Foot said:

Update from me, still in a secure unit, they tried to discharge me but it was challenged and awaiting the results of that so I’ll be here at least for over the weekend. I’m so numb to it all I saw my mum in tears and felt nothing, had a video call with my daughter and again, just absolutely nothing, strangest thing of all that doesn’t bother me at all.

Make sure that when they discharge you, they discharge you into a community mental health team, and don’t just do a 48 hour follow up and leave you be. If they don’t make that clear, keep pestering them until they do. That mental health team should have a psychologist too so therapy should be an option. 

[FoxesDeb]

3 hours ago, Steve_Guppy_Left_Foot said:

Update from me, still in a secure unit, they tried to discharge me but it was challenged and awaiting the results of that so I’ll be here at least for over the weekend. I’m so numb to it all I saw my mum in tears and felt nothing, had a video call with my daughter and again, just absolutely nothing, strangest thing of all that doesn’t bother me at all.

I don't know what to say, other than I genuinely hope everything gets better for you. Everyone on this thread is here for you if needed, please stay strong and let us know how you are getting on xx

[FoxesDeb]

So Sunday will be a year since Ellis left me. Me, my daughter and my husband have come to Tenerife for a break away from home, I couldn't bear the thought of being at home in the same house on the anniversary of when I got the news. The phone call from his Dad telling me Ellis was gone plays out in my head many times every day, his voice is like some kind of constant fvcking siren in my head telling me that life as I knew it was over.

 

I can't believe it's been a year already if I'm honest, it still feels like yesterday. A year closer until I can be with him again, but a lifetime ahead of all the things I'll never see him do.

 

 

[Trav Le Bleu]

20 hours ago, FoxesDeb said:

So Sunday will be a year since Ellis left me. Me, my daughter and my husband have come to Tenerife for a break away from home, I couldn't bear the thought of being at home in the same house on the anniversary of when I got the news. The phone call from his Dad telling me Ellis was gone plays out in my head many times every day, his voice is like some kind of constant fvcking siren in my head telling me that life as I knew it was over.

 

I can't believe it's been a year already if I'm honest, it still feels like yesterday. A year closer until I can be with him again, but a lifetime ahead of all the things I'll never see him do.

 

 

Enjoy the holiday as best you can.

 

Remember the good times - no point dwelling on might-have-beens.

[Steve_Guppy_Left_Foot]

Had a meeting type thing today and gone from informal to section  2, which basically means 28 days of treatment, seems strange to me, a lot of people in here think everyone’s after them or have that gone out look in their eye or are wandering about aimlessly, the turnover is really high been probably 7 patients go and come in the 2 weeks I’ve been here. It’s fine though just really tedious sitting about but got a few people I get on with really well and it’s good to discuss each others problems etc. 

[Trav Le Bleu]

13 minutes ago, Steve_Guppy_Left_Foot said:

Had a meeting type thing today and gone from informal to section  2, which basically means 28 days of treatment, seems strange to me, a lot of people in here think everyone’s after them or have that gone out look in their eye or are wandering about aimlessly, the turnover is really high been probably 7 patients go and come in the 2 weeks I’ve been here. It’s fine though just really tedious sitting about but got a few people I get on with really well and it’s good to discuss each others problems etc. 

Glad it's not too bad. You realise they'll only let you out when you accept we are going to be relegated.

[Steve_Guppy_Left_Foot]

Well, before I could discharge myself and go out by myself, now I have to go out escorted and am not allowed to leave for 28 days, at least. Not improved at all, if anything getting progressively worse, the numbness is so strange but seems so normal.

[The Year Of The Fox]

New poster to this thread

 

Fiancée kicked me out her house 9th December. 
 

Moved back into Mum’s living out of a suitcase, unsure where I was even spending Christmas Day

 

She cancelled the wedding (29th May this year) 4 days before Christmas.

 

Step son (aged 8.5) told me to ‘**** off’ when I went round for more of my stuff unannounced (because his Mum was completely ignoring my phone calls)

 

Got my rental house back this week thanks to my tenants taking pity on me and moving out early so I can move back in

 

Found out she’s got a new fella today.
 

Therapy starts on Thursday. 

 

It’s been rough. 

Edited 13 February by The Year Of The Fox

[HighPeakFox]

3 minutes ago, The Year Of The Fox said:

New poster to this thread

 

Fiancée kicked me out her house 9th December. 
 

Moved back into Mum’s living out of a suitcase, unsure where I was even spending Christmas Day

 

She cancelled the wedding (29th May this year) 4 days before Christmas.

 

Step son (aged 8.5) told me to ‘**** off’ when I went round for more of my stuff unannounced (because his Mum was completely ignoring my phone calls)

 

Got my rental house back this week thanks to my tenants taking pity on me and moving out early so I can move back in

 

Found out she’s got a new fella today.
 

Therapy starts on Thursday. 

 

It’s been rough. 

Look for the upside if you can.... might be the best thing to happen in the long run.

[The Year Of The Fox]

Just now, HighPeakFox said:

Look for the upside if you can.... might be the best thing to happen in the long run.

Everyone’s said the same, and I’ve not spoken here about the physical abuse, as well as verbal. 
 

To say nothing of her kids and her lack of parenting.

 

Better off out, by a long shot. Still coming to terms with it all though. 

[Zear0]

13 minutes ago, The Year Of The Fox said:

Everyone’s said the same, and I’ve not spoken here about the physical abuse, as well as verbal. 
 

To say nothing of her kids and her lack of parenting.

 

Better off out, by a long shot. Still coming to terms with it all though. 

All the best buddy, sounds tough hope it works out for you.

[deejdeej]

1 hour ago, The Year Of The Fox said:

Everyone’s said the same, and I’ve not spoken here about the physical abuse, as well as verbal. 
 

To say nothing of her kids and her lack of parenting.

 

Better off out, by a long shot. Still coming to terms with it all though. 

It's gonna hurt and be rough for a time, but sounds like you'll come out of the other side so much better off! Good luck bud 👍 

[MaidstoneFox]

1 hour ago, The Year Of The Fox said:

New poster to this thread

 

Fiancée kicked me out her house 9th December. 
 

Moved back into Mum’s living out of a suitcase, unsure where I was even spending Christmas Day

 

She cancelled the wedding (29th May this year) 4 days before Christmas.

 

Step son (aged 8.5) told me to ‘**** off’ when I went round for more of my stuff unannounced (because his Mum was completely ignoring my phone calls)

 

Got my rental house back this week thanks to my tenants taking pity on me and moving out early so I can move back in

 

Found out she’s got a new fella today.
 

Therapy starts on Thursday. 

 

It’s been rough. 

Hope the therapy goes well mate and look after yourself. I've been through something similar.

[FoxesDeb]

1 hour ago, The Year Of The Fox said:

New poster to this thread

 

Fiancée kicked me out her house 9th December. 
 

Moved back into Mum’s living out of a suitcase, unsure where I was even spending Christmas Day

 

She cancelled the wedding (29th May this year) 4 days before Christmas.

 

Step son (aged 8.5) told me to ‘**** off’ when I went round for more of my stuff unannounced (because his Mum was completely ignoring my phone calls)

 

Got my rental house back this week thanks to my tenants taking pity on me and moving out early so I can move back in

 

Found out she’s got a new fella today.
 

Therapy starts on Thursday. 

 

It’s been rough. 

Good luck with it all, without wishing to parrot what others have said this really does sound like one of those situations you will look back on and realise you are so much better off out of, but still not easy to go through at the time, no doubt.

 

 

[Trav Le Bleu]

2 hours ago, The Year Of The Fox said:

Everyone’s said the same, and I’ve not spoken here about the physical abuse, as well as verbal. 
 

To say nothing of her kids and her lack of parenting.

 

Better off out, by a long shot. Still coming to terms with it all though. 

Seems like a blessing in disguise, but it might take some time to come to terms. Hope your parents are understanding. Take care mate.

[chris1232]

I was very sad yesterday(wednesday), but today i felt much better :-)

[Trav Le Bleu]

5 hours ago, chris1232 said:

I was very sad yesterday(wednesday), but today i felt much better :-)

Sounds like a win!

 

[Samilktray]

I’ve been prescribed Sertraline today. Anyone got any experience of it? Hoping it doesn’t turn me into a zombie if I’m totally honest 

[foxy boxing]

53 minutes ago, Samilktray said:

I’ve been prescribed Sertraline today. Anyone got any experience of it? Hoping it doesn’t turn me into a zombie if I’m totally honest 

Same thing im on. Don't really feel much better but you need to give it time I think.

[Libertine]

I started it recently too. For God's sake make sure you take it with plenty of water unless you want horrendous heartburn that makes you feel like you're going to die. Apparently the same can happen if you have it before lying flat too. 

 

It's worked relatively well so far I think, no major side effects other than feeling a bit funny for the first week or so.

[The Year Of The Fox]

2 hours ago, Samilktray said:

I’ve been prescribed Sertraline today. Anyone got any experience of it? Hoping it doesn’t turn me into a zombie if I’m totally honest 

Yes, went onto it on 20th Jan. It sent me zombie like for the first couple of days, and was absolutely exhausted. Couple of weeks later I felt much worse mood wise. 
 

Apparently it can ruin your libido too, which in my circumstances doesn’t matter right now

 

Couple of weeks after I started on it I went and asked for a higher dosage which was refused. Doctor Reid you need to give it 4-6 weeks to kick in

Edited 14 February by The Year Of The Fox

[Electric Yetis]

2 hours ago, Samilktray said:

I’ve been prescribed Sertraline today. Anyone got any experience of it? Hoping it doesn’t turn me into a zombie if I’m totally honest 

Been on it for around 18 months now and my mood is unrecognisable from when I started. 

Before I was a mess, catastrophising everything and generally at rock bottom.

 

I'm now in a much better place and I am able to deal with everyday life without the slightest knock sending me spiralling.

 

It took a while before I suddenly realised it was working. 

[Izzy]

2 hours ago, Samilktray said:

I’ve been prescribed Sertraline today. Anyone got any experience of it? Hoping it doesn’t turn me into a zombie if I’m totally honest 

Was on it for about a year back in ‘08

 

Definitely turned me into a zombie tbh, never felt like myself. Just in a permanent state of fog and haze.

 

Weaned myself off and had therapy instead which worked for me.