DANGEROUS TIGER Posted 11 February 2012 Posted 11 February 2012 Just wondered id anyone on here has ever done this? Some years ago I did it big time, and used to cut my arms with various knives, sometimes quite severely. This was put down to depression, and since taking medication, help from my partner, and speaking to another self harmer, I succeeded in stopping it. Now after six years, I have started again, even though I am on two powerful anti-depressants. Not very severely so far, but it's a bit worrying. I get uptight, and seeing and feeling the blood running, is very soothing, though I imagine most of you will not understand this. I just wondered if there were others on here, who have ever experienced this, and how they got over it.
HEGGSY Posted 11 February 2012 Posted 11 February 2012 Just wondered id anyone on here has ever done this? Some years ago I did it big time, and used to cut my arms with various knives, sometimes quite severely. This was put down to depression, and since taking medication, help from my partner, and speaking to another self harmer, I succeeded in stopping it. Now after six years, I have started again, even though I am on two powerful anti-depressants. Not very severely so far, but it's a bit worrying. I get uptight, and seeing and feeling the blood running, is very soothing, though I imagine most of you will not understand this. I just wondered if there were others on here, who have ever experienced this, and how they got over it. Are you sure this is the sort of stuff you want to be sharing on an internet forum.
Haydos Posted 11 February 2012 Posted 11 February 2012 Are you sure this is the sort of stuff you want to be sharing on an internet forum. What I thought but to be fair he's only looking for help. Really weird shit though, not something I understand even slightly.
HEGGSY Posted 11 February 2012 Posted 11 February 2012 What I thought but to be fair he's only looking for help. Really weird shit though, not something I understand even slightly. I understand he's looking for help and applaud him for being so open about it. Its just surely, there must be better places to discuss a problem like this than on a football forum.As you say, its not something I can comment on as its never, ever crossed my mind.
21st Century Fox Posted 11 February 2012 Posted 11 February 2012 While I've never experienced this or profess to be an expert, from my limited understanding of it on a chemical level cutting yourself releases endorphins which act as the bodies natural pain killer and anti-depressant, which would make me think your anti-depressants aren't doing their job. Contact whom ever prescribes your anti-depressants asap, before you start a cycle.
Salieri Posted 11 February 2012 Posted 11 February 2012 While I've never experienced this or profess to be an expert, from my limited understanding of it on a chemical level cutting yourself releases endorphins which act as the bodies natural pain killer and anti-depressant, which would make me think your anti-depressants aren't doing their job. Contact whom ever prescribes your anti-depressants asap, before you start a cycle. This, but also he needs to get to the bottom of what exactly is causing the depression in the first place. The drugs will just mask the problem, counselling and/or attending a group designed for people with similar problems should help.
Rincewind Posted 11 February 2012 Posted 11 February 2012 Dt I cannot know how you feel, only that maybe you are looking for support on here amongst others you regard as friends because of a shared affection for LCFC. However you must seek help elsewhere with professionals whether that be a doctor or a self-help group. I am not qualified so medically I cannot help. I am sure it helps you somewhat opening up to others. I have never been in the same position but for me I feel writing down your thoughts help relieve any tension or anxiety felt. Next time pick up a pen and paper and write down how you are feeling even if its nonsense. But you must see a doctor first.
Guest BlueBrett Posted 11 February 2012 Posted 11 February 2012 Just wondered id anyone on here has ever done this? Some years ago I did it big time, and used to cut my arms with various knives, sometimes quite severely. This was put down to depression, and since taking medication, help from my partner, and speaking to another self harmer, I succeeded in stopping it. Now after six years, I have started again, even though I am on two powerful anti-depressants. Not very severely so far, but it's a bit worrying. I get uptight, and seeing and feeling the blood running, is very soothing, though I imagine most of you will not understand this. I just wondered if there were others on here, who have ever experienced this, and how they got over it. I'm amazed by this. You usually come across as such a cheery kind of guy Seriously though if it's a recurring problem have you considered a major overhaul of your lifestyle? I've always thought that if things ever got too much for me or if I did something truly shameful I'd just bugger off to Alaska and farm fish for a living.
Mission Unlikely Promotion Posted 11 February 2012 Posted 11 February 2012 I have met many many people before who have self-harmed but i am not an expert and as others on here have said DT you should seek the correct sort of help through counselling etc, best of luck DT, you need good friends and family around you at times like these
Captain... Posted 11 February 2012 Posted 11 February 2012 I know people who have and I think you need to find the cause, what has changed that makes you want to do it again? Obviously the time of year is not the best for people suffering from depression. I think one thing is, and it may sound obvious, but keep busy, keep active, get a hobby, stop drinking, and don't cut yourself it is not helping it is self destructive.
Bryn Posted 11 February 2012 Posted 11 February 2012 Your post gives me the impression that you don't cut yourself because you're depressed... not to say that you're not, it's just that it doesn't sound like that's why you do it. Have you ever had this habit properly analysed by a psychologist?
FoxyPV Posted 11 February 2012 Posted 11 February 2012 DT - Yep. Did it for many a year. Haven't done it in nearly 8 years now but still get the urges. I suppose it's a response to certain feelings that like any addiction takes serious effort to get rid of. The only thing I can suggest DT, is to try and find out why you want to cut again. for you. If you want a chat PM me.
lcfcadam Posted 11 February 2012 Posted 11 February 2012 I'm quite astounded by how prevalent this seems to be, and how in some circles it's almost considered "normal". I discovered my housemate doing it for the first time just before Christmas and it was a ****ing shock (especially as I was the only other person still in the house to deal with it - and it needed dealing with as he didn't know what to do with himself), since then he's been doing it quite often and, frankly, it's a damn nightmare for anyone who has to live alongside someone doing it "publicly" (I.E. not keeping it a secret). It's not that I don't have some kind of sympathy, I mean clearly it's a psychological thing that you can only understand if you experience it. But it's very, very difficult to comprehend what's going through their heads from the point of view of someone like me, who has never had any inclination whatsoever to self-harm (the very thought makes me cringe horribly). Think lots of contact with your doctor has to be the best suggestion, rather than trying to think up solutions on your own. As far as I can tell the latter tactic hasn't worked at all for my housemate...
Zingari Posted 11 February 2012 Posted 11 February 2012 I've often thought that being a Leicester fan was a form of self harm. Sorry DT , not making light of your probs , just a little joke ok ? good luck
SystonFox Posted 11 February 2012 Posted 11 February 2012 Mate at work has done it, tried to commit suicide too so obvs he felt pretty shit but a few years ago he seemed to get better and came off his anti depressants and became what you may call "normal" but just after Xmas he came back into work and told me he was on stronger anti-d and since then hes been extremely spaced out, quiet and seemingly anxious. I know his problems are down to money even though he earns a decent wage he can't control his spending and has fell victim to payday loan companies like wonga and quickquid. They make me sick. Hope he can recover from this vicious circle one day, wanted to get it out there as I worry for him and writing this has made me feel a tad better. DT I hope you too recover and find a way to stop cutting
acooling08 Posted 12 February 2012 Posted 12 February 2012 Can't imagine cutting myself or anyone else for that matter. Actually just thinking about it makes me feel sick. My advice would be to get some cognitive behavioural therapy to find the root of your pyschological issues, drugs are just a palliative measure that do not solve much.
lavrentis Posted 12 February 2012 Posted 12 February 2012 Must be horrible, I've been depressed before but never had the urge to cut myself, makes me wince thinking about it. Someone very close to me did cut themselves which affected me quite bad tbh.
Bert Posted 12 February 2012 Posted 12 February 2012 Must be horrible. I don't want this to come across in the wrong way, or look to be insensitive but sometimes see it as attention based. Hope you can come out on top against it all.
ozleicester Posted 12 February 2012 Posted 12 February 2012 DT, Talk to someone. Speak to a help line, a doctor,anyone, find an understanding ear and talk it off. Please
The Year Of The Fox Posted 12 February 2012 Posted 12 February 2012 DT, Talk to someone. Speak to a help line, a doctor,anyone, find an understanding ear and talk it off. Please Agreed. IMO this could be some place to talk about it along with a counsellor. You're anonymous and hopefully would get mature replies only. My ex used to self harm but I never knew why to be honest. Coulnd't understand though what you have said echo's what she said
Finnegan Posted 12 February 2012 Posted 12 February 2012 An ex of mine used to batter her thighs with a wrench, the bruises were awful. She was bulimic and a depressive and as supportive as I tried to be there was very little impact I or her friends ever seemed to have. When those who knew finally encouraged her to tell her GP things started getting a lot better, quickly. You've said you're already on the medication, so I guess you're still in regular contact with your doctor(s), but going back to the professionals and having the courage to speak up and tell them what you've told us will pay much bigger dividends then turning to Foxes Talk for help. Whatever you decide I hope you get through it and find your way back to a happier place, DT.
SOCCERROO FOX Posted 12 February 2012 Posted 12 February 2012 An ex of mine used to batter her thighs with a wrench, the bruises were awful. She was bulimic and a depressive and as supportive as I tried to be there was very little impact I or her friends ever seemed to have. When those who knew finally encouraged her to tell her GP things started getting a lot better, quickly. You've said you're already on the medication, so I guess you're still in regular contact with your doctor(s), but going back to the professionals and having the courage to speak up and tell them what you've told us will pay much bigger dividends then turning to Foxes Talk for help. Whatever you decide I hope you get through it and find your way back to a happier place, DT. I would harm myself too if i was dating you (Sorry someone had to say it) There a hotlines you can also call that are free and you speak to a professional consellor if you are too scared to speak to a doctor. But would recommend speaking to a doctor first.
Finnegan Posted 12 February 2012 Posted 12 February 2012 I would harm myself too if i was dating you (Sorry someone had to say it)
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