Depression

[weller54]

1 minute ago, when_you're_smiling said:

That’s crap. I’ve noticed I’ve dreamt more recently. Not bad ones though.

 

Hopefully it all comes good.

Thanks.. 

Don't know if you saw the BBC documentary in the week about people having problems coming off antidepressants? 

[urban.spaceman]

Does anyone ever have one of those days where hours go by without you noticing and you completely forget what you were supposed to be doing?

 

Managed to somehow forget I had a physio at 2 and only found out by checking my emails at 4 and now it's going to cost me £60. The financial anxiety that I'd managed to stave off for a couple of weeks while I was teetering over my overdraft is now back with a vengeance.

 

**** my life.

[marbles]

3 minutes ago, urban.spaceman said:

Does anyone ever have one of those days where hours go by without you noticing and you completely forget what you were supposed to be doing?

 

Managed to somehow forget I had a physio at 2 and only found out by checking my emails at 4 and now it's going to cost me £60. The financial anxiety that I'd managed to stave off for a couple of weeks while I was teetering over my overdraft is now back with a vengeance.

 

**** my life.

It happens.

I get wrapped up in my thought for hours sometimes, before realizing I’ve accomplished nothing.  
Missed a lunch with a friend once.  Ever since then, I put all my appointments on my calendar and set an alert.

[westernpark]

First time posting in this thread. But how do people cope with sleeplessness as a result of this horrible disease.

[TrentFox]

3 hours ago, westernpark said:

First time posting in this thread. But how do people cope with sleeplessness as a result of this horrible disease.

My sleep pattern is absolutely awful. I tend to end up in here most nights for a couple of hours around 3am. I read some people’s posts ……. and that calms me as I realise my problems are nothing compared to some people who suggest we should have appointed Lampard or have given Praet more game time!!! Then I sleep soundly.
 

And if all else fails, get your doc to prescribe Zopiclone. Absolutely superb a few nights a week and, personally, have found zero side-effects or next-day-grogginess. 

[Daggers]

10 hours ago, westernpark said:

First time posting in this thread. But how do people cope with sleeplessness as a result of this horrible disease.

Either open up the work laptop and work or the play laptop and game to the point I drowse off - usually around 7-8am. 

[Xen]

Been suffering with insomnia more and more regularly lately, usually off the back of a panic/anxiety attack, which leads me to a vicious cycle of preemptively panicking about panicking, and just lying in bed triggers it. Convinced its an effect of long covid (which got worse after I had my 2nd round back in October last year) and it's pushed me to breaking point lately in combination with work stress and a few other things going on. Finally saw my GP again today, got a(nother) referral for therapy which I'll actually follow through with this time and been put on Sertraline. Always avoided it in favour of more 'natural' treatments (throwing myself into running/gym etc seemed to do wonders) but figure there's no point resisting it unnecessarily. 

 

Will see how it goes, hopefully can start to feel somewhat human again soon. 

[TJQuik]

I feel like I'm getting better and better at pushing people away with time. I randomly ended up going out with someone I've really liked for a while. I have felt a connection with her for a while and that feeling increased the more we talked. It felt really exciting and natural. Then the avoidant side of me started to kick in already and I could feel myself emotionally pulling away in my head and finding every excuse to do so. I'm so good at it now that I'm already comfortable with the idea that it won't progress further.

 

It helps now that I understand why I do these things but it feels like an impossible thing to fix. I just can't imagine someone being able to put up with a fear of intimacy due to trauma either so it's a neverending thing.

[Shah johns]

I think I’m there without seeing it happening. I work from home since the pandemic, not always through choice as they changed the office which is over 2 hours away anyway. I used to be so confident with people face to face now I get so nervous if I have to meet people.

I spend all week looking for that Friday night beer but usually don’t stop until Sunday., I don’t go out it’s just at home. I always say to my wife spend the weekend trying to build the life you want not to escape from the one you have but I’m not living up to that at all. 
 

She just goes out now and leaves me to it which I don’t blame her for. Anyone else been in a similar position to give me tips of how to break this cycle as I’m fed up of all the PC crap help online.

 

Sorry,

 xx

Edited 1 July 2023 by Shah johns

[Xen]

22 hours ago, Xen said:

Been suffering with insomnia more and more regularly lately, usually off the back of a panic/anxiety attack, which leads me to a vicious cycle of preemptively panicking about panicking, and just lying in bed triggers it. Convinced its an effect of long covid (which got worse after I had my 2nd round back in October last year) and it's pushed me to breaking point lately in combination with work stress and a few other things going on. Finally saw my GP again today, got a(nother) referral for therapy which I'll actually follow through with this time and been put on Sertraline. Always avoided it in favour of more 'natural' treatments (throwing myself into running/gym etc seemed to do wonders) but figure there's no point resisting it unnecessarily. 

 

Will see how it goes, hopefully can start to feel somewhat human again soon. 

First night was interesting. Fell asleep without much bother at all. Other half woke me up when he came to bed a couple hours later, and couldnt get back to sleep at all. Racing thoughts were a lot more random and incoherent though, rather than tangible worries. So still limited sleep, but in a different way than before. GP did say the first few days in particular it might seem worse before it gets better, so hopefully its just adjusting to it.

 

Honestly not sure what to expect, even in the best case scenario where it works without any downsides. It's been that long (way before the insomnia) that I'm not even sure what the 'normal' me is like.

[urban.spaceman]

Me walking out of my therapy session yesterday:

 

 

My brain 20 minutes later:

 

[urban.spaceman]

Been considering doing a Masters and hopefully this year. Anyone done one? Is it worth it? How easy is it to get funding for it?

[Daggers]

6 hours ago, urban.spaceman said:

Been considering doing a Masters and hopefully this year. Anyone done one? Is it worth it? How easy is it to get funding for it?

My employer sponsored my last Masters. I looked at doing one in History recently but it would be self funded - I binned the idea once I saw the cost and broke up the units into self study modules instead. I like getting the certificates but can’t justify the cost these days so I just read recommended texts and focus on online sources. 

[urban.spaceman]

Bit the bullet and started my application today!! Very exciting, if I get on it. Have reached the "personal statement" bit so far and having a bit of trouble selling myself at the minute. 10,000 characters limit though and split into 5 sections. Someone needs to send me this every hour for the next few days so that I get my shit together:

 

 

[Jon the Hat]

On 25/06/2023 at 22:34, weller54 said:

Thanks.. 

Don't know if you saw the BBC documentary in the week about people having problems coming off antidepressants? 

I haven't seen this yet, was there anything we don't already know?  ie it is tricky?

[leicsmac]

On 07/07/2023 at 20:58, urban.spaceman said:

Been considering doing a Masters and hopefully this year. Anyone done one? Is it worth it? How easy is it to get funding for it?

Just finishing a three-year online one. I think it'll be worth it for me, but at the same time personal circumstances are everything there.

 

I had to self-fund mine, but I guess there may be options available for folks resident in the UK.

[Bordersfox]

On 07/07/2023 at 12:58, urban.spaceman said:

Been considering doing a Masters and hopefully this year. Anyone done one? Is it worth it? How easy is it to get funding for it?

I have done a master's self-funded and I will be doing another one commencing September, again self-funded with the small matter of a fifteen year ago between the two.   I also did a funded dip. Law. So I've experienced both funded and self-funded.    Overall, funding is great but not very easy to secure.  

 

My personal recommendation, if your circumstances allow it, is to undertake your course part-time and to work part time. A job that is relatively mindless or low pressure is ideal.  I personally found this allowed me to immerse myself in the course but to get some work based skills and, of course, to pay my way.  I recommend without reservation doing a master's, and particularly doing it part time - fully savour the experience.  You should do it because you want to, but you never know where these things can lead and it can potentially be an immensely rewarding and fulfilling experience.  

[FoxyPV]

Came off my antidepressants a while back and feeling ok mainly but had a moment today

[urban.spaceman]

22 hours ago, FoxyPV said:

Came off my antidepressants a while back and feeling ok mainly but had a moment today

How you feeling today? It can be extremely shakey coming off meds but hopefully you'll level out. I've not taken mine for 10 months or so, should probably seek my doc's advice about that if I could get to see him. 

[urban.spaceman]

On 13/07/2023 at 16:13, Bordersfox said:

I have done a master's self-funded and I will be doing another one commencing September, again self-funded with the small matter of a fifteen year ago between the two.   I also did a funded dip. Law. So I've experienced both funded and self-funded.    Overall, funding is great but not very easy to secure.  

 

My personal recommendation, if your circumstances allow it, is to undertake your course part-time and to work part time. A job that is relatively mindless or low pressure is ideal.  I personally found this allowed me to immerse myself in the course but to get some work based skills and, of course, to pay my way.  I recommend without reservation doing a master's, and particularly doing it part time - fully savour the experience.  You should do it because you want to, but you never know where these things can lead and it can potentially be an immensely rewarding and fulfilling experience.  

The one I've got my eye on is only for a year, but I really, really like the look of it, and while I absolutely can't afford it I'm going to beg and borrow for the cash to do it. Will have to move but will happily take a brainless job to support myself. Just a shame this has coincided with the cost of living crisis but it genuinely feels like an exciting way forward.

[weller54]

On 13/07/2023 at 01:17, Jon the Hat said:

I haven't seen this yet, was there anything we don't already know?  ie it is tricky?

It's worth watching on catch up..somethings mentioned were a surprise and worry. 

I was ready to stop completely but had some awful news last week that has set my mind racing and it's now got me thinking it's just the wrong time to come off them!! 

 

 

[davelcfcwalsh]

On 17/02/2016 at 15:20, Pinkman said:

I've suffered from the illness/disease (it eats away at you, making you feel hopeless) for the past year and a half. I've often contemplated about ending my life in the last few weeks. I go to university but can't say I particular enjoy it. I rarely turn up to university through anxiety and fear.

 

I haven't told my parents/friends. My friends see me in a completely different light. A cocky, light-hearted individual. 

 

A combination of guilt and comforting myself by listening to music has meant I haven't taken my life, however I feel completely and utterly miserable. I spoke to my course leader about it, and ended up breaking down half way through the meeting. I really do think leaving university would be the best thing to do, I think it would make me happier, but I'd feel like a failure towards my parents who have obviously paid lots of money for me to come here.

 

I'd also like to thank this current Leicester team/staff for giving me hope. What Ranieri, Mahrez, Kante, Vardy and co have achieved this season is unbelievable, and it gives me real hope to carry and battle on. Even if we don't win the league, this campaign has been amazing and made me almost forget the Taylor/Levein/Holloway years...

 

Anyway, I'm not sure what my intention was to post this on here, I just wanted to know if anyone has ever felt anything similar to me, and what they did to combat this.

 

 

 

I suffered majorly about 4-5 years ago when I tried to take my own life.

I needed help and got it just by talking to someone who doesn't know me or judge me.

I still struggle now but learnt how to cope.

Everyone has different ways of dealing and coping with it and you just need to find your way.

Don't give up !!!

My way to help was exercise i.e pushbike and most of all music

Music helped me in so many ways.

Try Trent PTS the helped me alot just by talking 

[Thefox81]

31 minutes ago, davelcfcwalsh said:

I suffered majorly about 4-5 years ago when I tried to take my own life.

I needed help and got it just by talking to someone who doesn't know me or judge me.

I still struggle now but learnt how to cope.

Everyone has different ways of dealing and coping with it and you just need to find your way.

Don't give up !!!

My way to help was exercise i.e pushbike and most of all music

Music helped me in so many ways.

Try Trent PTS the helped me alot just by talking 

I struggle on a daily basis. I get the highest sertraline  (200mg) thiamine (50mg) and zopiclone to help me sleep (7.5mg). Going for a run and having an understanding boss helps

[davelcfcwalsh]

Serttraline sent me wappy didn't help me at all 

But everyone is different and may suit you 

I refuse all anti-depresent drugs now and have done for 2 years 

Everyone has control over there own minds it's how you control it. And finding the best way for YOU to control it.

But if anyone decided to come off pills please please see your doctor and wean your way off don't just stop 

Can cause more damage than its worth

[whoareyaaa]

People with sleep problems should try CBD or cannabis, I know its frowned upon but it does work against insomnia.