Depression

[doverfox]

16 hours ago, Strokes said:

I lost a friend to suicide this week, I only spoke with him on Saturday and I had no idea he was suffering at all.

Please, if you’re not well and feeling like shit, reach out. We don’t want to lose you too.

 

Devastated.

Feel for you mate and for foxfanazer but for the different struggles you are facing a lot of us are great at hiding our real feelings emotional mind set crying and screaming at my self on the daily drive to work just to get to the carpark wipe my eyes and pretend all as rossie in the doverfox garden. Strokes not knowing the conversation you had i take it the was a sign even a little one that would you acting differently than you did. I am sure your friennd didnt want to pass his pain to you. IF ANYONE ever wants to talk i am more than happy to listen just drop me a pm.

[foxfanazer]

Thanks to everyone who has commented. I've just not got the energy to reply properly yet. Still here at least

[Strokes]

Just now, foxfanazer said:

Thanks to everyone who has commented. I've just not got the energy to reply properly yet. Still here at least

Glad you’re ok.

[MPH]

Just now, foxfanazer said:

Thanks to everyone who has commented. I've just not got the energy to reply properly yet. Still here at least

 This is all we need - a post like this- you spend your time looking after yourself

 

[FoxesDeb]

34 minutes ago, foxfanazer said:

Thanks to everyone who has commented. I've just not got the energy to reply properly yet. Still here at least

Please don't feel you need to reply, just do whatever you need to. But if you feel it would help, talk away when you're ready 😊

[Wymsey]

Craig Bellamy leaves as assistant manager to deal with the illness.

https://www.bbc.co.uk/sport/football/58538941

Edited 12 September 2021 by Wymsey

[foxfanazer]

Had a couple of days now on my anti depressants. Have to say they're taking some adjusting to but I'm gonna carry on taking them. The other night was an all time low and it terrified me. I was sat at work crying my eyes out with customers in my shop. Luckily I've got an amazing work colleague who came in to be with me. Thank you for all your well wishes and help the other night .

 

And @Strokes I'm sorry if my posts caused you any extra distress. Sorry to hear about your friend

 

 

[doverfox]

Foxfanazer if you want somewhere to cry where you wont be bothered or judged i found the local crem was good.

[foxfanazer]

15 minutes ago, doverfox said:

Foxfanazer if you want somewhere to cry where you wont be bothered or judged i found the local crem was good.

Haha never thought of that, thanks. God knows what I looked like behind the counter at work!

[Phil Bowman]

On 11/09/2021 at 19:18, foxfanazer said:

I'm overwhelmed by the thought of just escaping all the pain

I know it doesn’t feel possible at the moment, but you really can escape the pain and still be alive and with your family. It takes time, and you’ll probably need help and support along the way, and it’ll be an up and down journey. But the help and support is there, and the journey is so worth making. Just never, ever be scared or ashamed to talk about it and/or ask for help when you need it.

[chrishlcfc]

Had more good days than bad recently but been really down the last week or so. Really struggling financially, having no luck whatsoever in finding a job. And I’m getting so many urges to gamble again right now after being 8 months free. 

 

Just hate where I’m at in my life right now. Don’t know what to do and my life has no direction at all. Fed up with it all if I’m being honest.

[Carl the Llama]

21 hours ago, chrishlcfc said:

Had more good days than bad recently but been really down the last week or so. Really struggling financially, having no luck whatsoever in finding a job. And I’m getting so many urges to gamble again right now after being 8 months free. 

 

Just hate where I’m at in my life right now. Don’t know what to do and my life has no direction at all. Fed up with it all if I’m being honest.

Sorry I liked this after the first few words but finished reading and decided it's a bit inappropriate.  Have you had any kind of counselling?

[chrishlcfc]

30 minutes ago, Carl the Llama said:

Sorry I liked this after the first few words but finished reading and decided it's a bit inappropriate.  Have you had any kind of counselling?

No worries, Yeah been having Counselling. Had about 14/15 sessions which have benefited me a bit but just not sure where I can go from here. I can’t afford anymore sessions.

[Carl the Llama]

3 hours ago, chrishlcfc said:

No worries, Yeah been having Counselling. Had about 14/15 sessions which have benefited me a bit but just not sure where I can go from here. I can’t afford anymore sessions.

Sorry to hear that.  Definitely don't want to see you falling back into gambling, if you want to probe into things a bit more with a friendly set of ears I'd be happy for you to drop me a dm.

[Carl the Llama]

I shared a while ago in another thread that I've taken up the unorthodox hobby of cross stitch to keep my fingers busy.  If anybody's looking for something to occupy their time and keep their thoughts from wandering I can't recommend it enough, it literally destroys hours of your life just as effectively as smoking any spliff will, and the concentration required means it takes your mind off the negative thoughts.

 

Case in point I've been putting in at least a few hours every night for the past week and a half to put together a piece which only measures 5"x7" and has a lot of unstitched space. Not going to post it here since it's a rather twee piece to give to my middle-aged female boss as a going away gift and I'm already doing my manly credentials no favours with this post

 

Incidentally I've already planned out a new project inspired by a post on this forum which I will eventually share but it's a fair bit more detailed than the one I just completed so it'll be a while yet...

[urban.spaceman]

On 11/09/2021 at 20:25, Strokes said:

I lost a friend to suicide this week, I only spoke with him on Saturday and I had no idea he was suffering at all.

Please, if you’re not well and feeling like shit, reach out. We don’t want to lose you too.

 

Devastated.

So sorry to read of your loss Strokes. Don’t be too hard on yourself for not spotting the signs. Some of us are so good at hiding our pain and acting ‘normal’. He must have been so exhausted. 

Edited 16 September 2021 by urban.spaceman

[urban.spaceman]

On 11/09/2021 at 11:38, Buce said:

If it's not too intrusive to ask, what are your reasons for drinking?

 

I think identifying that is the key to stopping.

I honestly don’t know what it was about last week. Been dry this week and have felt OK. I’m able to have very long dry spells without a problem. It’s just last week I found myself buying rum or whiskey without realising and then having the whole bottle without being able to stop, every couple of days or so. I just couldn’t stop. 

[ajthefox]

On 21/09/2021 at 16:55, pmcla26 said:

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Vent if you need to mate, no-one will judge you in here. Hope you're ok.

[Strokes]

On 11/09/2021 at 20:25, Strokes said:

I lost a friend to suicide this week, I only spoke with him on Saturday and I had no idea he was suffering at all.

Please, if you’re not well and feeling like shit, reach out. We don’t want to lose you too.

 

Devastated.

So been to the funeral today, such a strange day. Celebrating the life of someone we knew but did we really know him? I’m not so sure.

RIP buddy.

[Carl the Llama]

20 minutes ago, Strokes said:

So been to the funeral today, such a strange day. Celebrating the life of someone we knew but did we really know him? I’m not so sure.

RIP buddy.

I'd say you knew the best of him if that makes things any better.  There's nothing in my DMs yet btw, how long should I wait?

[Strokes]

Just now, Carl the Llama said:

I'd say you knew the best of him if that makes things any better.  There's nothing in my DMs yet btw, how long should I wait?

Yeah you’re probably right, just surreal hearing stories of a successful, funny, loving man but nobody knew of the suffering.

Makes me question what I’m seeing with my eyes now. Why do we hide it?

[Strokes]

3 minutes ago, Carl the Llama said:

There's nothing in my DMs yet btw, how long should I wait?

I think @Mark must have intercepted it and kept it for his private collection. Bloody pervert.

[Buce]

3 minutes ago, Strokes said:

Yeah you’re probably right, just surreal hearing stories of a successful, funny, loving man but nobody knew of the suffering.

Makes me question what I’m seeing with my eyes now. Why do we hide it?

 

Nobody truly knows what's in a man's head when he's alone in the dark.

[Strokes]

1 minute ago, Buce said:

 

Nobody truly knows what's in a man's head when he's alone in the dark.

Because we never talk….

 

[Raj]

A high proportion of comedians have depression in the past.

Therefore relating to normal life, that person who is always chatting, smiling, the fun of the party, MIGHT actually not be so happy within