Depression

[FoxesDeb]

On 29/04/2022 at 01:20, chrishlcfc said:

Feeling so awful the last few days again. There will become a day soon when I just give up to the temptations in my head.

If you feel like this ring 116 123, the Samaritans are always there to talk. Or post here, one of us is always around, but please, please do not give in to the temporary feelings. You will get through this and come out the other side stronger, even if you can't see it at the moment. 

 

Sending you lots of good wishes x

[HighPeakFox]

I'm sorry, I've not been very present here for a while. I'm juggling a blooming professional life with post - Covid exhaustion, and for now looking after myself until I'm a bit stronger and work is slightly less crazy is my priority. 

 

I send best wishes to you all, especially those currently not having a great time. It can get better. 

[urban.spaceman]

On 28/04/2022 at 18:43, MPH said:

@urban.spaceman haven’t seen you around for a while chap. Just checking in on you to see how you are doing!

Very kind of you mate, I'm OK, I'd been in FoxesTalk jail for a couple of weeks so wasn't trying to be dramatic or anything...

[MPH]

2 minutes ago, urban.spaceman said:

Very kind of you mate, I'm OK, I'd been in FoxesTalk jail for a couple of weeks so wasn't trying to be dramatic or anything...

I’ll take that! Glad to have you back around!

[urban.spaceman]

2 minutes ago, MPH said:

I’ll take that! Glad to have you back around!

Cheers mate have messaged you back. It was actually quite nice to have break, the mods should offer it as a service  

[ajthefox]

6 hours ago, HighPeakFox said:

I'm sorry, I've not been very present here for a while. I'm juggling a blooming professional life with post - Covid exhaustion, and for now looking after myself until I'm a bit stronger and work is slightly less crazy is my priority. 

 

I send best wishes to you all, especially those currently not having a great time. It can get better. 

No need to apologise Peaky, everyone needs to prioritise themselves first and foremost. Sometimes I find myself quite motivated to reply to a post in here from someone who is struggling, other times I can't muster the strength to find and type the right words. 

 

I'm glad to hear the professional life is blooming for you, and I can empathise with what it feels like to be juggling that and your own wellbeing.

 

Lets hope the City can lift everyone's spirits a little this afternoon with a win!

[ajthefox]

52 minutes ago, urban.spaceman said:

Very kind of you mate, I'm OK, I'd been in FoxesTalk jail for a couple of weeks so wasn't trying to be dramatic or anything...

What did they put you in jail for Urban?

[urban.spaceman]

56 minutes ago, ajthefox said:

What did they put you in jail for Urban?

Not falling for that one, I’m saying nothing. 

[srbfox]

Not posted for a loooong time. but feeling at the crossroads which some choices, and my mind is knackered. 
 

Split with the misses, moved into my own gaff which is ok but being away from the kids is tough. The 15 years alcohol addiction is circling back around ready to pounce. 

😵‍💫😵‍💫

 

[ajthefox]

56 minutes ago, urban.spaceman said:

Not falling for that one, I’m saying nothing. 

Genuinely curious but fair enough.

[urban.spaceman]

15 minutes ago, ajthefox said:

Genuinely curious but fair enough.

Check your inbox mate

[chrishlcfc]

Back in my old don’t go to work routine. I know that I should be going but my mind is telling me not to go. I’m then fighting those thoughts so much and end up not going in and feeling crap.
 

Feel stupid and lazy now and as usual it’s making me feel awful.

[Izzy]

Just now, chrishlcfc said:

Back in my old don’t go to work routine. I know that I should be going but my mind is telling me not to go. I’m then fighting those thoughts so much and end up not going in and feeling crap.
 

Feel stupid and lazy now and as usual it’s making me feel awful.

Is it your mind telling you not to go, or is it your heart? 

 

Are you fighting against your intuition?

 

Is your 'sixth sense' telling you that you shouldn't be working there and it's not right for you?

 

Trust your vibes. If your job makes you anxious, jack it in, do something else, and find your peace.

[chrishlcfc]

8 hours ago, Izzy said:

Is it your mind telling you not to go, or is it your heart? 

 

Are you fighting against your intuition?

 

Is your 'sixth sense' telling you that you shouldn't be working there and it's not right for you?

 

Trust your vibes. If your job makes you anxious, jack it in, do something else, and find your peace.

Im really not sure. Trouble is I actually enjoy the job. It’s got more positives than negatives. So I really don’t know. 
 

I don’t think I’d find peace in any job right now. The way my mind is I just feel totally and utterly gone and even worse is that it’s not just occasional thoughts it’s constant almost 24/7. 

[HybridFox]

I feel I'm at a crossroads at the moment. Not in a relapse yet but not making good choices either.

 

I was quite content with life when the pandemic started and had found my mojo back - healthwise, socially and with work.

 

The last 2 years have taken its toll though physically and mentally. I'm in a worse state than when I started and the social anxiety has really kicked in now that normal service is resumed. I guess I feel that people will judge me having last seen me before lockdown vs the version of me now.

 

I have dragged myself to a handful of meetups so far but I'm so self-conscious I don't really settle and am quite happy to come back home as soon as I am able to. I can make small talk and put on a smile but it absolutely kills me inside.

 

But equally I get so flustered at home with the family around, spending virtually everyday with them in a room and often feel like I need an excuse to go out. 

 

They've been away on holiday this past week which ordinarily would have been a great opportunity for me to get some much needed me time, perhaps wonder out and really unwind.

 

But then I just feel that there's a lot I can do and in contemplating how to make the most of it, all I ended up doing was sitting on my arse at home all day. Struggling to get of bed at the weekend, before I knew it half of it was gone. Do a chore here and there and feel down by the end of the day that I didn't accomplish anything. So end up staying awake.

 

They'll be back tomorrow and the cycle will begin again. 

 

It's like I want interaction but when it comes, I feel like sh** afterwards. I plan to do things and then on the day I can't get myself to do it (and feel like sh** afterwards). As I said, I'm not in a relapse yet falling back into depression but unless I break the cycle it can only be so long before I head back down the dark road

Edited 16 May 2022 by TK95

[pazzerfox]

Anyone have trouble sleeping? I've been struggling for a couple of weeks now and had a panic attack at work last Thursday that felt like a heart attack (Dr confirmed it was a panic attack after being taken to A&E.

 

I've never suffered from anything like this before but I feel anxious during the day because I'm not getting enough sleep, but do not feel tired enough to go to sleep at night! Been to the GP who took some more blood tests.. all very strange.

 

Persevering with meditation and relaxation and also changed my diet.

[Crinklyfox]

2 hours ago, pazzerfox said:

Anyone have trouble sleeping? I've been struggling for a couple of weeks now and had a panic attack at work last Thursday that felt like a heart attack (Dr confirmed it was a panic attack after being taken to A&E.

 

I've never suffered from anything like this before but I feel anxious during the day because I'm not getting enough sleep, but do not feel tired enough to go to sleep at night! Been to the GP who took some more blood tests.. all very strange.

 

Persevering with meditation and relaxation and also changed my diet.

I suffered from insomnia as a result of stress during my working life.  Concern about sleeping can lead to increased adrenaline in the evening which makes sleep more difficult - you ideally need to be relaxed to sleep.

 

What works for you may not be what worked for me so you'll need to find the best method of relaxation for yourself.  Bottom line is that there is medication available from your GP that will promote sleep, but it shouldn't be regularly used for most people as it can become addictive.  Personally I found that having something available I knew would make me sleep made me more relaxed as bedtime approached so I then managed to sleep without resorting to medication.

 

Sleep is a habit.  I've found it easier to sleep if I have a regular time when I go to bed.  The body produces a natural sleep enhancer called melatonin, this makes you feel tired.  It's difficult to sleep before the melatonin has kicked in and if you resist it then it wears off and sleep becomes difficult (often referred to as being 'overtired').

 

Your GP will be looking for any underlying cause of your sleep problems, please don't be concerned about discussing short term solutions to get you through this.  Many years after my original sleep problems I still get the occasional bad night but mostly I'm fixed.  Hope you can get there too.

[Daggers]

Never got on with sleeping pills, they always lagged into the next day so killed off any chance of driving or getting anything done. There again, I never got on with any meds - which is bizarre given the range and volume of drugs I used to pump into myself when I was self medicating.

 

I’ve struggled for six months since picking up an injury at football. Unable to do that or karate, I’ve made bad choice after bad choice, and piled weight back on as a result. Why did they make chip butties taste so damn good? Why is comfort eating so pleasurable?

 

Somehow I need to set myself a deadline to start eating well again and get on a bicycle - it’s about the only exercise left open to me until my ankle repairs itself. Even then I reckon my football and karate days are sadly over. Exercise and weight management were the only way I found to cope with life without meds.

[Guest Basildon Fox]

10 hours ago, pazzerfox said:

Anyone have trouble sleeping? I've been struggling for a couple of weeks now and had a panic attack at work last Thursday that felt like a heart attack (Dr confirmed it was a panic attack after being taken to A&E.

 

I've never suffered from anything like this before but I feel anxious during the day because I'm not getting enough sleep, but do not feel tired enough to go to sleep at night! Been to the GP who took some more blood tests.. all very strange.

 

Persevering with meditation and relaxation and also changed my diet.

I had a similar episode at a Spanish Airport.  The scariest moment of my life.  I ended up being checked out in an ambulance at the airport where they confirmed I was having a panic attack and not a heart attack.  Even weirder that as soon as I lay down on the trolley I began to relax. They gave me a couple of sedatives and sent me on my way.

 

I didn't feel right for a couple of weeks after.  Completely on edge, sweating and my mind racing to the point of distraction so I went to the doctors and they gave me drugs for a few months (Citalopram).  I also had to go and take a blood test to make sure 100% that I had not had a heart attack. It took me 3 months before I started to feel normal again.

 

Think it was because me and the future Mrs Beeblebrox were planning our wedding and I had been badly let down by my first wife, bringing waves of worry in case it would be the same again.  Is there anything specifically you are anxious about at the moment?

[pazzerfox]

3 hours ago, Zaphod Beeblebrox said:

I had a similar episode at a Spanish Airport.  The scariest moment of my life.  I ended up being checked out in an ambulance at the airport where they confirmed I was having a panic attack and not a heart attack.  Even weirder that as soon as I lay down on the trolley I began to relax. They gave me a couple of sedatives and sent me on my way.

 

I didn't feel right for a couple of weeks after.  Completely on edge, sweating and my mind racing to the point of distraction so I went to the doctors and they gave me drugs for a few months (Citalopram).  I also had to go and take a blood test to make sure 100% that I had not had a heart attack. It took me 3 months before I started to feel normal again.

 

Think it was because me and the future Mrs Beeblebrox were planning our wedding and I had been badly let down by my first wife, bringing waves of worry in case it would be the same again.  Is there anything specifically you are anxious about at the moment?

Thanks for the reply. There really isn't anything consciously that I feel anxious about..I recently turned 40 and previously I had a plan that at 40 I would have children, kids etc but this hasn't panned out as of yet. It could be something like that subconsciously I guess. How do you feel now?

 

[pazzerfox]

10 hours ago, Crinklyfox said:

I suffered from insomnia as a result of stress during my working life.  Concern about sleeping can lead to increased adrenaline in the evening which makes sleep more difficult - you ideally need to be relaxed to sleep.

 

What works for you may not be what worked for me so you'll need to find the best method of relaxation for yourself.  Bottom line is that there is medication available from your GP that will promote sleep, but it shouldn't be regularly used for most people as it can become addictive.  Personally I found that having something available I knew would make me sleep made me more relaxed as bedtime approached so I then managed to sleep without resorting to medication.

 

Sleep is a habit.  I've found it easier to sleep if I have a regular time when I go to bed.  The body produces a natural sleep enhancer called melatonin, this makes you feel tired.  It's difficult to sleep before the melatonin has kicked in and if you resist it then it wears off and sleep becomes difficult (often referred to as being 'overtired').

 

Your GP will be looking for any underlying cause of your sleep problems, please don't be concerned about discussing short term solutions to get you through this.  Many years after my original sleep problems I still get the occasional bad night but mostly I'm fixed.  Hope you can get there too.

Thank you for this

[Guest Basildon Fox]

31 minutes ago, pazzerfox said:

Thanks for the reply. There really isn't anything consciously that I feel anxious about..I recently turned 40 and previously I had a plan that at 40 I would have children, kids etc but this hasn't panned out as of yet. It could be something like that subconsciously I guess. How do you feel now?

 

I am fine with regard to a severe attack like that.  I have had a couple of mini-episodes since but nothing on that level.  The severe panic attack was about 5 years ago now.

 

To be honest I have suffered for most of my adult years mentally which I have mentioned previously in the thread.  Counselling has worked wonders for me. 

 

Do you tend to overthink and regurgitate old problems from years ago when trying to get to sleep? That used to keep me awake for hours.  If I find myself starting with that pattern, I will put a podcast on which allows me to just listen and clear my mind of anything else.  The RSK podcast works for me on spotify.  Probably heard the episodes 30 times each over the years but still helps me to drift off.

[pazzerfox]

I'm glad you are finding solutions to your issue.  I love a bit of RSK too, i will give it a try.  It's like a vicious circle.

 

That's what is confusing me.  I have never suffered menatlly before and have never really experienced anxiety, so it's all a bit of a shock.  I suppose your mind is a wonderful thing and you never really know which cogs are turning in the background!

 

I'm not overthinking when i'm trying to get to sleep.  I picutre myself relaxing on a beach and concentrate on listening to my breathe, i just can't get off to sleep.  I managed to get to sleep about 4.30am last night, so 3 hours sleep is better than zero i guess.

[Wymsey]

No one, however successful and well-known, is exempt from suffering from anxiety and depression.

 

https://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-wales-61553142

 

It's important to reach out to those you trust, if you're struggling.

[urban.spaceman]

Crept up on me again, the sneaky bastard.