Depression

[ajthefox]

Pretty good couple of days for me. I keep sharing with people and the response is almost always an incredibly positive one.

 

I started CBT on saturday and the first session was just an intro but I'm looking forward to getting stuck into it. I think I'm also starting to accept my own problem for what it really is.

 

I also just started listening to a podcast called the hilarious world of depression - the first episode couple of episodes have been great, so much of the first resonated so strongly with me.

 

 

[Wymsey]

Hope this individual recovers well from a situation which certainly could've been tragic..

https://www.leicestermercury.co.uk/news/leicester-news/car-park-welford-road-leicester-2992802

[ajthefox]

Oh my, today has been a strange day. 

 

I felt like king of the world this morning and then had a dramatic and rapid onset comedown at the strangest time. During the comedown I came to the realisation (with the help of a new-ish friend well versed in such difficulties) that I was on the end of an abusive relationship for about a year. It ended 5 years ago and a lot of it is still floating around in the back of my head.

 

The best analogy I can currently think of to demonstrate my thoughts (on a day like today) visually is sonic the hedgehog in a speedball following a curve that is somewhere between a tangent and a sin/co-sin one. 

That said, I'm pretty content right now, floating along the river.

Edited 19 June 2019 by ajthefox

[FoxesDeb]

I'm really feeling down. I don't really have any friends to speak of, obviously I have colleagues at work but I don't really have any one that I can talk to properly. I should be really grateful for what I do have and my partner is great, but I just think sometimes I really need to talk to a friend. I'm so envious of those of you who have kept in touch with your friends, mine have all moved away or we've just lost touch. 

No point to this really other than to say that even when you live with someone you can still be lonely. 

[Izzy]

2 hours ago, FoxesDeb said:

I'm really feeling down. I don't really have any friends to speak of, obviously I have colleagues at work but I don't really have any one that I can talk to properly. I should be really grateful for what I do have and my partner is great, but I just think sometimes I really need to talk to a friend. I'm so envious of those of you who have kept in touch with your friends, mine have all moved away or we've just lost touch. 

No point to this really other than to say that even when you live with someone you can still be lonely. 

I hear ya Deb.

 

Since I moved away from Leics nearly 20 years ago, I've pretty much lost touch with all my old friends. Even though I've lived with my missus for nearly 25 years, there's stuff I still couldn't talk to her about and stuff I definitely couldn't talk to my parents about. 

 

I guess I rely on my 'virtual' friends on here when I'm down but I know that's not the same as face to face. We all need someone who'll listen without judgement and just allow us to get stuff off our chest.

 

I'll be your friend if you want 

 

[Mike Oxlong]

22 minutes ago, Izzy said:

I hear ya Deb.

 

Since I moved away from Leics nearly 20 years ago, I've pretty much lost touch with all my old friends. Even though I've lived with my missus for nearly 25 years, there's stuff I still couldn't talk to her about and stuff I definitely couldn't talk to my parents about. 

 

I guess I rely on my 'virtual' friends on here when I'm down but I know that's not the same as face to face. We all need someone who'll listen without judgement and just allow us to get stuff off our chest.

 

I'll be your friend if you want 

 

Hi Izzy, 

 

Just wondered if you’ve been given the date for your next parole board review ? 

 

I’ll try and arrange a visit soon. 

 

Best wishes 

 

Mike 

[Costock_Fox]

I went on a course at work about mental health today and it’s interesting how certain jobs/professions/businesses treat people differently to others.

[lifted*fox]

quick update

 

i quit my job at xmas, gave up my company car, company phone, £45k a year, etc.

 

I've done a bit of freelance work and without going into too much detail I made more more money in 24 hours than I would have done in 6 months. 

 

i got a 2k tax rebate.

 

i've had offers to do some bits of part time work alongside my freelance stuff which i'm going to do because **** it, why not.

 

i walk and cycle everywhere.

 

my marriage is practically over.

 

i travelled, HK, Bangkok, Myanmar, Cambodia, Philippines, HK. I liked the Phillippines so much I went back for another two weeks.

 

I'm just waiting to sort a few things out and I'm going off to Vietnam and who knows where else for a couple of months. 

 

I spend a couple of hours a day in the gym - I'm in better shape than ever.

 

I have a couple of issues with prescription drugs but nothing I can't keep a lid on.

 

anyway, swings and roundabouts.

 

you don't have to live how the man tells you.

 

stop moving, stand still - good things come to you. 

 

some bad shit happens too. that's life.

 

hi. 

 

[Costock_Fox]

18 minutes ago, lifted*fox said:

quick update

 

i quit my job at xmas, gave up my company car, company phone, £45k a year, etc.

 

I've done a bit of freelance work and without going into too much detail I made more more money in 24 hours than I would have done in 6 months. 

 

i got a 2k tax rebate.

 

i've had offers to do some bits of part time work alongside my freelance stuff which i'm going to do because **** it, why not.

 

i walk and cycle everywhere.

 

my marriage is practically over.

 

i travelled, HK, Bangkok, Myanmar, Cambodia, Philippines, HK. I liked the Phillippines so much I went back for another two weeks.

 

I'm just waiting to sort a few things out and I'm going off to Vietnam and who knows where else for a couple of months. 

 

I spend a couple of hours a day in the gym - I'm in better shape than ever.

 

I have a couple of issues with prescription drugs but nothing I can't keep a lid on.

 

anyway, swings and roundabouts.

 

you don't have to live how the man tells you.

 

stop moving, stand still - good things come to you. 

 

some bad shit happens too. that's life.

 

hi. 

 

Fair play, if my marriage broke up I would probably do something similar in all fairness.

[lifted*fox]

meh

Edited 28 June 2019 by lifted*fox

[gw_leics772]

5 minutes ago, lifted*fox said:

meh

Looking at your previous post you are the embodiment of taking things a day at a time.

 

Re read your own post from wednesday and concentrate on the positives rather than the negatives.

 

I know its not always that easy but chin up fella. Take some me time til you get throgmugh the current train of thought.

 

Friday. Weekend, movies, whatever it takes. Look after yourself fella.

[gw_leics772]

You know the steps, if i can help to nudge/kick you through them, let me know. 

 

Spew out your negatives and I'll give you the 3rd party positice sides of it.

[Costock_Fox]

On 26/06/2019 at 17:58, Costock_Fox said:

Fair play, if my marriage broke up I would probably do something similar in all fairness.

I’m not a million miles away from half of this scenario playing out.

[lifted*fox]

went to my first wedding yesterday since shit with mine has fallen apart and it was one of the most heartbreaking days of my life tbh. 

 

i feel terrible. 

[Maboimahrez]

Currently on my way on holiday with my mates and sat in the toilets at the airport crying. Just got rejected from another interview having got to the final 2 only for them to prefer the other candidate. Been looking for a job for over a year and this is the 4th time this exact situation as occurred. Feel like complete shit like I dont want to leave the cubicle and face the outside world

 

Feel this shouldn’t even be on this thread as it seems so minor compared to what others are suffering but just wanted a channel to clear my thoughts

[lavrentis]

This probably isn't the ideal time to post this as i'm sorry you didn't get the job.

 

But I just wanted to thank my company for being very understanding about my psychosis, when you find a good company stick with it as they stuck with you.

[gw_leics772]

45 minutes ago, Maboimahrez said:

Currently on my way on holiday with my mates and sat in the toilets at the airport crying. Just got rejected from another interview having got to the final 2 only for them to prefer the other candidate. Been looking for a job for over a year and this is the 4th time this exact situation as occurred. Feel like complete shit like I dont want to leave the cubicle and face the outside world

 

Feel this shouldn’t even be on this thread as it seems so minor compared to what others are suffering but just wanted a channel to clear my thoughts

I feel your pain. It IS depression, even if you have no history of it. Hopefully it is just circumstantial depression, meaning you may benefit from tablets this one time but never again.

 

Your holiday has come at the perfect time for you, as long as you let your mind enjoy it.

 

Try to think that everything happens for a reason. I was in your position for longer. Ended with everything coming to a head, negotiating a fat pay off and buying out somebody elses business which i have doubled in size and brought another.

 

Still challenging, especially with depression being a regular bedfellow of mine, but it took that time for me to get the strength for the end game and the confidence to go it alone (eventually)

 

Enjoy your break. Talk to one of your mates there if you need to/can but mostly, get ****ed out of your nut and remember nothing. Alcohol CAN be great for depression. I dont need my anti depressants the morning after a major sesh(still take them but if i forget, its no biggie)

Go out there and do yourself proud chap.

 

Enjoy, and update us, we can be your outlet, in exchange for sordid lads holiday stories ???

[Buce]

51 minutes ago, Maboimahrez said:

Currently on my way on holiday with my mates and sat in the toilets at the airport crying. Just got rejected from another interview having got to the final 2 only for them to prefer the other candidate. Been looking for a job for over a year and this is the 4th time this exact situation as occurred. Feel like complete shit like I dont want to leave the cubicle and face the outside world

 

Feel this shouldn’t even be on this thread as it seems so minor compared to what others are suffering but just wanted a channel to clear my thoughts

 

I don't think you should be regarding getting to the final two as 'rejection', mate; it's been a long time since I've been in the position of looking for work, but from what I understand there are hundreds - sometimes thousands - of applicants for even the most menial of jobs. To have reached the final two on four occasions says to me that you have something pretty special about you and it's only a matter of time until somebody snaps you up.

 

Now, pick yourself up, get on that plane and go and have a brilliant holiday with your mates. Where is it you're going to?

[pSinatra]

1 hour ago, Maboimahrez said:

Currently on my way on holiday with my mates and sat in the toilets at the airport crying. Just got rejected from another interview having got to the final 2 only for them to prefer the other candidate. Been looking for a job for over a year and this is the 4th time this exact situation as occurred. Feel like complete shit like I dont want to leave the cubicle and face the outside world

 

Feel this shouldn’t even be on this thread as it seems so minor compared to what others are suffering but just wanted a channel to clear my thoughts

 

We were recruiting where I work a couple of weeks ago & as I'm the supervisor, I sat in on the interviews.  To be honest, I found the whole process terrifying.  Not the interviews themselves, but we had 8 applicants & all of them were worthy of a job in my opinion (to different degrees).  I felt guilty for all those that didn't get the job.  I desperately wanted them all to call for some feedback, so I could give them all some positives to take from the ordeal.  What I'm trying to say is, that all the candidates were unlucky.  Any other time, they may well have found themselves getting the job. 

 

To find yourself in the top 2 candidates & not get the job - keep going mate.  You're obviously good at what you do, or you wouldn't have found yourself in the last 2 four times. 

 

Have you asked for any feedback from your interviews?  You probably feel that they would only tell you stuff you don't want to hear (criticisms).  I think it's more likely they would give you mostly positive feedback & anything not so good, will give you some useful information to take into your next interview.  Easier said than done, I know.

 

Good luck 

Edited 1 July 2019 by pSinatra

[ROB-THE-BLUE]

Hey guys, hope everyone is doing ok. Just wondering if anyone has tried using CBD oil alongside their antidepressants? Any good/bad feedback? I've been offered some as a trial thing but don't want to rock the boat too much if that makes sense. I can't see any obvious stories of it causing any problems but doesn't hurt to ask I guess. 

Edited 1 July 2019 by ROB-THE-BLUE

[gw_leics772]

3 minutes ago, ROB-THE-BLUE said:

Hey guys, hope everyone is doing ok. Just wondering if anyone has tried using CBD oil alongside any antidepressants? Any good/bad feedback? I've been offered some as a trial thing but don't want to rock the boat too much if that makes sense. 

No experience myself but my brother, who has a whole host of ailments alongside depression, including sleep apnea and hyperthyrotoxicosis (thyroid problems), which is a biggie, and although he mostly keeps himself to himself, i do know it definitely works for him.

If you dont get answers, do a search of this thread as i read every post and definitely recall people talking doses not too long ago.

If you're already thinking about it, have a go under guidance. As the great Dr Pepper once said, whats the worst that can happen ? 

[gw_leics772]

1 hour ago, lavrentis said:

This probably isn't the ideal time to post this as i'm sorry you didn't get the job.

 

But I just wanted to thank my company for being very understanding about my psychosis, when you find a good company stick with it as they stuck with you.

Glad to hear things are on the up for you chap. You have my utmost respect for opening up and answering my random questions, not to mention living with it and being positive.

[lavrentis]

Just now, gw_leics772 said:

Glad to hear things are on the up for you chap. You have my utmost respect for opening up and answering my random questions, not to mention living with it and being positive.

I'm grateful to the people who look after me. I feel blessed as well.

[spacemunky]

43 minutes ago, ROB-THE-BLUE said:

Hey guys, hope everyone is doing ok. Just wondering if anyone has tried using CBD oil alongside their antidepressants? Any good/bad feedback? I've been offered some as a trial thing but don't want to rock the boat too much if that makes sense. I can't see any obvious stories of it causing any problems but doesn't hurt to ask I guess. 

Had a meeting with my cousin and my Uncle the other day and my cousin was trying to sell me on the stuff. He said I'd still need to stay on my anti-depressants, but depending on what area I wanted to concentrate on the most, there is a product available to help. He told me his sister uses the gummies with CBD and they have helped her with her anxiety.

 

He's got big time shares in a company that sells the stuff, so I was only half interested as it sounded more like a sales pitch and knowing him it's always just about how he benefit$.

 

Supposed to be sending me an email about all the different products and how they are supposed to work. I'll at least give it a read.

 

 

[Lionator]

2 hours ago, Buce said:

 

I don't think you should be regarding getting to the final two as 'rejection', mate; it's been a long time since I've been in the position of looking for work, but from what I understand there are hundreds - sometimes thousands - of applicants for even the most menial of jobs. To have reached the final two on four occasions says to me that you have something pretty special about you and it's only a matter of time until somebody snaps you up.

 

Now, pick yourself up, get on that plane and go and have a brilliant holiday with your mates. Where is it you're going to?

This, this and this @Maboimahrez. 

 

You've had rubbish news so you're naturally concentrating on the negative, but once the dust settles, the fact that you're getting to the final two means that it's just a matter of time and it's going to feel oh so sweet once you get it. 

 

Also don't be ashamed for feeling upset. Sadness and disappointment, even depression are natural human emotions, especially so after a rejection, it'll lift! Enjoy your holiday, I am jealous.