Depression

[rachhere]

7 hours ago, HighPeakFox said:

Yesterday, my favourite person in the world told me I am her favourite person in the world. 

 

I'm aged 52 and nobody has ever told me that before, never mind being told it by the one person I value over any other. I cannot tell you how special it is. 

 

I thought this worth sharing. Be hopeful and keep going. 

This has seriously warmed my heart 

[urban.spaceman]

On 10/01/2023 at 14:08, urban.spaceman said:

Back in the gym. Wish me luck. 

11.5KG down!!!

[SpacedX]

7 minutes ago, urban.spaceman said:

11.5KG down!!!

You don't feel pain
If I were to knock you down
you'd just get up again.

 

Congratulations. 

[foxfanazer]

On 27/02/2023 at 13:59, HighPeakFox said:

Yesterday, my favourite person in the world told me I am her favourite person in the world. 

 

I'm aged 52 and nobody has ever told me that before, never mind being told it by the one person I value over any other. I cannot tell you how special it is. 

 

I thought this worth sharing. Be hopeful and keep going. 

Such a massive thing to hear 

 

Edit: a massive thing, not abusive stupid phone

Edited 8 March 2023 by foxfanazer

[deejdeej]

14 hours ago, urban.spaceman said:

11.5KG down!!!

You're smashing it man, don't stop!

[deejdeej]

My dad's funeral yesterday, this shit is hard but I'm so determined to do him proud. Hope everyone is doing okay. Stay strong.

Edited 9 March 2023 by deejdeej

[urban.spaceman]

14 hours ago, Line-X said:

You don't feel pain
If I were to knock you down
you'd just get up again.

 

Congratulations. 

Cheers mate.

 

Love Chumbawumba. 

[urban.spaceman]

4 minutes ago, deejdeej said:

You're smashing it man, don't stop!

Cheers fella. Big targets this year.

2 minutes ago, deejdeej said:

My dad's funeral yesterday, this shit is hard but I'm so determined to do him proud. Hope everyone is doing okay. Stay strong.

Ah mate I'm so sorry for your loss. 

[Jon the Hat]

19 hours ago, urban.spaceman said:

11.5KG down!!!

WTF have you got dysentery???  Congratulations!!!

[SpacedX]

7 hours ago, urban.spaceman said:

Cheers mate.

 

Love Chumbawumba. 

More Bonzo Dog actually

[HybridFox]

Always felt football was a bit of an escape from things, at least watching Leicester. As it would have my absolute attention for 90 mins. But it's been f****g grim hasn't it.

 

Even during games, I find myself drifting now thinking about work issues, the family etc. Don't really look forward to weekends as much as I used to, knowing I was going down the KP

 

Should be used it over the years but there was just more joy than this in the Championship. Feel like the life has been sucked out the place this season

 

[Tommy G]

9 hours ago, TK95 said:

Always felt football was a bit of an escape from things, at least watching Leicester. As it would have my absolute attention for 90 mins. But it's been f****g grim hasn't it.

 

Even during games, I find myself drifting now thinking about work issues, the family etc. Don't really look forward to weekends as much as I used to, knowing I was going down the KP

 

Should be used it over the years but there was just more joy than this in the Championship. Feel like the life has been sucked out the place this season

 

I'd stay away from the Leicester City Forum if the games are making you feeling bad, that place is another level!

[marbles]

19 hours ago, TK95 said:

Always felt football was a bit of an escape from things, at least watching Leicester. As it would have my absolute attention for 90 mins. But it's been f****g grim hasn't it.

 

Even during games, I find myself drifting now thinking about work issues, the family etc. Don't really look forward to weekends as much as I used to, knowing I was going down the KP

 

Should be used it over the years but there was just more joy than this in the Championship. Feel like the life has been sucked out the place this season

 

Always good to have more than one escape, especially if one of them involves sports.

[kingfox]

Think this is the first time posting in this thread.

 

Been struggling with depression and anxiety since 2020, extreme social phobia brought on by Covid times.

 

Was put on Mirtazapine back end of last year, not had an effect on me. Told to up the dosage, but I get one mental health practitioner saying it helps with anxiety, then I get told by another that it doesn’t, “Google it” she said. From NHS own website  “Mirtazapine treats depression, ocd and anxiety. The same woman also wants me to take propranolol another anxiety med but used mainly for heart conditions.

 

I’m fvcking sick and tired of getting told different things, really don’t know what to do for the best, stuff like this worsens my anxiety to the point where suicidal thoughts come and go.

 

Of course I can’t see or speak to a doctor which isn’t helpful, just get advised for the above medication and away you go 😕

[Daggers]

7 minutes ago, kingfox said:

Think this is the first time posting in this thread.

 

Been struggling with depression and anxiety since 2020, extreme social phobia brought on by Covid times.

 

Was put on Mirtazapine back end of last year, not had an effect on me. Told to up the dosage, but I get one mental health practitioner saying it helps with anxiety, then I get told by another that it doesn’t, “Google it” she said. From NHS own website  “Mirtazapine treats depression, ocd and anxiety. The same woman also wants me to take propranolol another anxiety med but used mainly for heart conditions.

 

I’m fvcking sick and tired of getting told different things, really don’t know what to do for the best, stuff like this worsens my anxiety to the point where suicidal thoughts come and go.

 

Of course I can’t see or speak to a doctor which isn’t helpful, just get advised for the above medication and away you go 😕

Have you been offered any talking therapies yet? Your GP can and should refer you to a three step treatment. 
 

Also, if you’re having suicide ideation then you really do need to discuss it with your GP as a matter of urgency. Just be straight with the receptionist, tell them you’ve been thinking about it and urgently need to see the doc.

 

Not all medication works for everyone. They have a range to pick from and will go through a process of pink’n’mix till they get the combo and strength that works for you. If you’ve been on just Mirtazapine for that time and it’s doing nothing you need a meds review. Say yes to propanolol. Remember you’ll take time to adjust to a change in prescription.

 

PM if you ever just want an anonymous chat. Take care.

[kingfox]

47 minutes ago, Daggers said:

Have you been offered any talking therapies yet? Your GP can and should refer you to a three step treatment. 
 

Also, if you’re having suicide ideation then you really do need to discuss it with your GP as a matter of urgency. Just be straight with the receptionist, tell them you’ve been thinking about it and urgently need to see the doc.

 

Not all medication works for everyone. They have a range to pick from and will go through a process of pink’n’mix till they get the combo and strength that works for you. If you’ve been on just Mirtazapine for that time and it’s doing nothing you need a meds review. Say yes to propanolol. Remember you’ll take time to adjust to a change in prescription.

 

PM if you ever just want an anonymous chat. Take care.

Thanks for the advice Daggers.

 

Vita Minds was mentioned to me last night, I’ll sort something out with that later today.

 

Just been passed from pillar to post this morning. GP, CAP, 111 & my local pharmacy.

 

Can’t even get simple clarification on my medication, I get told one thing about it from the health practitioner that put me on it, then I get told another by a different clinician. 
 

Just incredibly frustrating.

[Thefox81]

1 hour ago, kingfox said:

Think this is the first time posting in this thread.

 

Been struggling with depression and anxiety since 2020, extreme social phobia brought on by Covid times.

 

Was put on Mirtazapine back end of last year, not had an effect on me. Told to up the dosage, but I get one mental health practitioner saying it helps with anxiety, then I get told by another that it doesn’t, “Google it” she said. From NHS own website  “Mirtazapine treats depression, ocd and anxiety. The same woman also wants me to take propranolol another anxiety med but used mainly for heart conditions.

 

I’m fvcking sick and tired of getting told different things, really don’t know what to do for the best, stuff like this worsens my anxiety to the point where suicidal thoughts come and go.

 

Of course I can’t see or speak to a doctor which isn’t helpful, just get advised for the above medication and away you go 😕

Try asking your GP to go onto sertraline. It did wonders for me but i know everyone is different. You will start on 50mg to see how you get on then increasing the dosage bit by bit. Maximum is 200mg which i was on for a while before reducing the dosage bit by bit as you start to feel better. Hope that helps and keep your head up. DM me if you have any questions.

[brucey]

3 hours ago, kingfox said:

Think this is the first time posting in this thread.

 

Been struggling with depression and anxiety since 2020, extreme social phobia brought on by Covid times.

 

Was put on Mirtazapine back end of last year, not had an effect on me. Told to up the dosage, but I get one mental health practitioner saying it helps with anxiety, then I get told by another that it doesn’t, “Google it” she said. From NHS own website  “Mirtazapine treats depression, ocd and anxiety. The same woman also wants me to take propranolol another anxiety med but used mainly for heart conditions.

 

I’m fvcking sick and tired of getting told different things, really don’t know what to do for the best, stuff like this worsens my anxiety to the point where suicidal thoughts come and go.

 

Of course I can’t see or speak to a doctor which isn’t helpful, just get advised for the above medication and away you go 😕

Propranolol has a different mechanism of action and with less side effects than most other anti anxiety drugs, it's worked wonders for many I know (including myself). Would recommend giving it a try. 

[Crinklyfox]

4 hours ago, kingfox said:

Think this is the first time posting in this thread.

 

Been struggling with depression and anxiety since 2020, extreme social phobia brought on by Covid times.

 

Was put on Mirtazapine back end of last year, not had an effect on me. Told to up the dosage, but I get one mental health practitioner saying it helps with anxiety, then I get told by another that it doesn’t, “Google it” she said. From NHS own website  “Mirtazapine treats depression, ocd and anxiety. The same woman also wants me to take propranolol another anxiety med but used mainly for heart conditions.

 

I’m fvcking sick and tired of getting told different things, really don’t know what to do for the best, stuff like this worsens my anxiety to the point where suicidal thoughts come and go.

 

Of course I can’t see or speak to a doctor which isn’t helpful, just get advised for the above medication and away you go 😕

Well done for posting, it isn't always easy to make that step.  Reading through your post I get the impression that your symptoms are being treated with medication but that there is little being done to address the root cause of your illness (and I consider depression to be an illness).  

 

If you have time please read through this thread from the beginning.  There have been many of us who have posted here, and you may find that some experiences tally with your own.  There are examples of techniques and reading that may help you.  I'm not a medical person and don't have knowledge of the factors that caused your depression but you may find something useful in the experiences of others.  It's also good to see that some sufferers have recovered, which can seem a distant possibility when depression grips you.  I hope that you find something that works for you.

[kingfox]

3 hours ago, Thefox81 said:

Try asking your GP to go onto sertraline. It did wonders for me but i know everyone is different. You will start on 50mg to see how you get on then increasing the dosage bit by bit. Maximum is 200mg which i was on for a while before reducing the dosage bit by bit as you start to feel better. Hope that helps and keep your head up. DM me if you have any questions.

 

2 hours ago, brucey said:

Propranolol has a different mechanism of action and with less side effects than most other anti anxiety drugs, it's worked wonders for many I know (including myself). Would recommend giving it a try. 

 

33 minutes ago, Crinklyfox said:

Well done for posting, it isn't always easy to make that step.  Reading through your post I get the impression that your symptoms are being treated with medication but that there is little being done to address the root cause of your illness (and I consider depression to be an illness).  

 

If you have time please read through this thread from the beginning.  There have been many of us who have posted here, and you may find that some experiences tally with your own.  There are examples of techniques and reading that may help you.  I'm not a medical person and don't have knowledge of the factors that caused your depression but you may find something useful in the experiences of others.  It's also good to see that some sufferers have recovered, which can seem a distant possibility when depression grips you.  I hope that you find something that works for you.

Thanks for the messages and advice.

 

Just had another phone call with central access point as my mood & anxiety earlier this afternoon worsened, I feel ok again for the time being.

 

@brucey the next step I’ve been advised is 30mg Mirtazapine(One at night) + Propranolol(One a day) but can’t remember the dosage for that. A referral for Vita Minds has also been sorted out.

 

@Crinklyfox Medication was the first port of call for my symptoms. I have spoken to Central Access Point a number of times though regarding my state and the route of the cause. Social Phobia is the main reason why my mental health hasn’t been great, all stemmed from 2020, I just can’t mix with people especially in crowded spaces, that then leads to bouts of depression and suicidal thoughts, which have intensified again since Sunday really. As I said above, Vita Minds was advised to me by numerous people, so hopefully that’s another step in the right direction 🤞🏻

[Thefox81]

8 minutes ago, kingfox said:

 

 

Thanks for the messages and advice.

 

Just had another phone call with central access point as my mood & anxiety earlier this afternoon worsened, I feel ok again for the time being.

 

@brucey the next step I’ve been advised is 30mg Mirtazapine(One at night) + Propranolol(One a day) but can’t remember the dosage for that. A referral for Vita Minds has also been sorted out.

 

@Crinklyfox Medication was the first port of call for my symptoms. I have spoken to Central Access Point a number of times though regarding my state and the route of the cause. Social Phobia is the main reason why my mental health hasn’t been great, all stemmed from 2020, I just can’t mix with people especially in crowded spaces, that then leads to bouts of depression and suicidal thoughts, which have intensified again since Sunday really. As I said above, Vita Minds was advised to me by numerous people, so hopefully that’s another step in the right direction 🤞🏻

I recommend turning point as well. Thats who i was with although your GP has to give you a referel to them.

[String fellow]

5 hours ago, kingfox said:

Think this is the first time posting in this thread.

 

Been struggling with depression and anxiety since 2020, extreme social phobia brought on by Covid times.

 

Was put on Mirtazapine back end of last year, not had an effect on me. Told to up the dosage, but I get one mental health practitioner saying it helps with anxiety, then I get told by another that it doesn’t, “Google it” she said. From NHS own website  “Mirtazapine treats depression, ocd and anxiety. The same woman also wants me to take propranolol another anxiety med but used mainly for heart conditions.

 

I’m fvcking sick and tired of getting told different things, really don’t know what to do for the best, stuff like this worsens my anxiety to the point where suicidal thoughts come and go.

 

Of course I can’t see or speak to a doctor which isn’t helpful, just get advised for the above medication and away you go 😕

Mirtazapine can be very helpful for insomnia. I've been taking 45mg nightly for about 10 years. Without it, I'd stay wide awake for several days and nights, then start to hallucinate. I'm not convinced that it helps much with anxiety, depression and ocd, even with that high dosage, but that's just from personal experience. Sertraline, mentioned above, might be more effective at treating those symptoms, but two of its downsides are that it's very difficult to eventually stop taking and it kills off one's libido. 

[kingfox]

24 minutes ago, String fellow said:

Mirtazapine can be very helpful for insomnia. I've been taking 45mg nightly for about 10 years. Without it, I'd stay wide awake for several days and nights, then start to hallucinate. I'm not convinced that it helps much with anxiety, depression and ocd, even with that high dosage, but that's just from personal experience. Sertraline, mentioned above, might be more effective at treating those symptoms, but two of its downsides are that it's very difficult to eventually stop taking and it kills off one's libido. 

That’s what kicked it all off tbh mate, which led to the mental health practitioner putting me on Mirtazapine. I had a bad bout of insomnia back in November which was brought on by anxiety. I’ve been on the lowest dose which hasn’t really touched me, so been advised with higher dose + Propranolol as mentioned and see how that combo goes. 
 

Like yourself, Mirtazapine has definitely helped with my sleep though, I’m definitely not feeling how I did back in November, which is something I’d rather not experience again.

[urban.spaceman]

On 03/12/2022 at 22:22, urban.spaceman said:

Not posted on here for a couple of months as I was getting roughly back on track. Found out tonight that my dad's oldest friend, basically my uncle, died suddenly at the LRI this afternoon. Can't even begin to process it yet. Whole family is in shock and devastation. Life really is just cruel.

First birthday without a card, call or a pint. Been overwrought with absolute misery all day. Breaking down every 10 minutes. Not even a present of the 1995 Green and Jade jersey that I've waited 28 years for, or the cash for a Steam Deck has managed to cheer me up. 6 years ago today he called me when I was on my way out of the King Power after we beat Sevilla. I don't think I'll ever forget that call. I loathe grief.

[Itsthejoeker]

8 hours ago, urban.spaceman said:

First birthday without a card, call or a pint. Been overwrought with absolute misery all day. Breaking down every 10 minutes. Not even a present of the 1995 Green and Jade jersey that I've waited 28 years for, or the cash for a Steam Deck has managed to cheer me up. 6 years ago today he called me when I was on my way out of the King Power after we beat Sevilla. I don't think I'll ever forget that call. I loathe grief.

Happy belated mate, hope you have a better day today.