Depression

[Izzy]

1 hour ago, The Blur said:

 

It sounded to me like you have already recognised the source of your current situation and that is half of the battle mate.  Everyone experience crisis at some stage of their lives,  however the crisis theory (read up on it if you like)  have a ideology of that each crisis often present both danger and opportunity.   People who go through crisis either return to their previous sense of equilibrium or to find their new equilibrium.  I am not saying you are going through a crisis at the moment but the point I am trying to make (perhaps not very well at the moment!) is it seems that you are trying to find a sense of new equilibrium in your life and perhaps that should be viewed as an opportunity in itself.    

 

To me,  you have plenty of strengths in your life.  Perhaps you can evaluate these and utilise them in finding your new sense of equilibrium.  It can be anything-  new hobbies that are not taxing physically,   experimenting with your diet to find great junk food that you can eat, that would involves going to new restaurants in new places that do these foods so you get to do some little exploring as well.  It can be anything really!

 

Feel free to keep us updated,  you are a cracking fellow and we all are rooting for you and others in this thread!   Take care mate.  

Thanks mate, I really do appreciate it.

 

My 'crisis' with my health problems in the past resulted in a life changing experience for me (both physically and mentally). I've had no choice but to try and find my new equilibrium, but it's still the sense of 'loss' that is the root cause of my depression I think.

 

I used to be confident, brash, driven and dynamic which resulted in me being pretty successful (career wise) at a relatively early age. Then I crashed and burnt almost overnight and lost all of those attributes.

 

My kids call me the 'Sloth' as I now live life in the slow lane and I've lost the spark I used to have. So now I have to re-adapt which is the hard part. The thing is, some days I feel pretty much 'house bound' and going out exploring fills me with dread (I always need to be within close proximity of the nearest WC with my condition). 

 

I suppose the 'opportunity' of being stopped in my tracks is that I'm now much more caring, less ego driven, more empathetic and a better listener. But my self esteem is at rock bottom and the frustration of not being fit and active like I used to be is driving me insane. That's why I'd quite happily call it a day now if it wasn't for my young kids to be honest.

 

Anyway, fvck it. I'll just take each day as it comes. Some days are O.K. and seeing the kids enjoying life does bring me happiness. 

 

Thanks again buddy 

 

P.S. I'm going to take a 'time out' from this thread for a bit to sort myself out I think. Thanks again everyone for your kind words and support - you're all diamonds...  

 

 

[theessexfox]

My girlfriend of 6 months has let slip to me that she is suffering from depression again. We tried being together a year ago and it didn't work out straight away as she was depressed and not in the right frame of mind. This time I've said we'll make it work and I'll stay by her side but I don't know what to do. She's already said that we have to pretend this conversation never happened and she is sorry for burdening me. It's not something which ruins our relationship - she has always had problems with anxiety and stress and we deal with them, albeit with more low points than the average relationship. I am most worried that we sit our A levels in the next 6 weeks and this will wreck her chances - she won't see anyone, won't let me talk to the relevant pastoral care at school and will try and deal with it internally and hide the worst of it from me. Like I said, this is not a doomed relationship with no smiles and high points, although the reason she let it slip was that we were on the verge of ending it over something very ridiculous being overplayed and overthought by her. I don't know what answers I'm looking for or anything, but I wish I could help her more. I am not going to try and blame myself for her problems, because I am the best boyfriend I can be and they are more deep-rooted than me just being an inadequate boyfriend, aha. 

[spacemunky]

5 hours ago, theessexfox said:

My girlfriend of 6 months has let slip to me that she is suffering from depression again. We tried being together a year ago and it didn't work out straight away as she was depressed and not in the right frame of mind. This time I've said we'll make it work and I'll stay by her side but I don't know what to do. She's already said that we have to pretend this conversation never happened and she is sorry for burdening me. It's not something which ruins our relationship - she has always had problems with anxiety and stress and we deal with them, albeit with more low points than the average relationship. I am most worried that we sit our A levels in the next 6 weeks and this will wreck her chances - she won't see anyone, won't let me talk to the relevant pastoral care at school and will try and deal with it internally and hide the worst of it from me. Like I said, this is not a doomed relationship with no smiles and high points, although the reason she let it slip was that we were on the verge of ending it over something very ridiculous being overplayed and overthought by her. I don't know what answers I'm looking for or anything, but I wish I could help her more. I am not going to try and blame myself for her problems, because I am the best boyfriend I can be and they are more deep-rooted than me just being an inadequate boyfriend, aha. 

Having someone is huge. 

 

Good that she opened up. No one wants to be a burden, but some of us need a little extra help. 

 

 

[Crinklyfox]

10 hours ago, theessexfox said:

My girlfriend of 6 months has let slip to me that she is suffering from depression again. We tried being together a year ago and it didn't work out straight away as she was depressed and not in the right frame of mind. This time I've said we'll make it work and I'll stay by her side but I don't know what to do. She's already said that we have to pretend this conversation never happened and she is sorry for burdening me. It's not something which ruins our relationship - she has always had problems with anxiety and stress and we deal with them, albeit with more low points than the average relationship. I am most worried that we sit our A levels in the next 6 weeks and this will wreck her chances - she won't see anyone, won't let me talk to the relevant pastoral care at school and will try and deal with it internally and hide the worst of it from me. Like I said, this is not a doomed relationship with no smiles and high points, although the reason she let it slip was that we were on the verge of ending it over something very ridiculous being overplayed and overthought by her. I don't know what answers I'm looking for or anything, but I wish I could help her more. I am not going to try and blame myself for her problems, because I am the best boyfriend I can be and they are more deep-rooted than me just being an inadequate boyfriend, aha. 

People can say they are depressed when they are low and having someone beside them at that time can be a great help.  We need several positive experiences to overcome a single negative experience to lift our moods.

 

If, however, your girlfriend has clinical depression then just having someone beside her may not be enough.  Depression can cause physiological changes which are best addressed with medication.  Someone who is having dark thoughts to end their existence is more likely to be clinically depressed so seeking help from a medical professional is essential.  

 

 

[ozleicester]

6 hours ago, spacemunky said:

Having someone is huge. 

 

Good that she opened up. No one wants to be a burden, but some of us need a little extra help. 

 

 

Good onya for sticking and helping... all you can do is your best. It sounds like you are a caring person so even when your best isnt enough... remember you are only human.

 

Good luck

 

edit sorry i meant to quote @theessexfox 

Edited 13 May 2017 by ozleicester

[tom27111]

On 2017-5-9 at 22:59, Izzy Muzzett said:

So after months of procrastination, I've finally decided that I need to go back and see my therapist.

 

It's probably been four years since my last session, but the time is right to seek help again. I'm not in a great place right now...

 

Even though I 'get it' intellectually and fully understand the psychology behind depression, I'm finding myself having darker and darker thoughts about my mortality. And I know they're only thoughts and I know I don't have to believe them, but something has shifted significantly for me this year.

 

I know this sounds really fvcked up, but I'd be more than happy if one day soon I went to sleep and didn't wake up. I'm not suicidal or thinking of taking my own life - but I'm totally at peace with the thought of death and I know that sounds really odd.

 

It's almost like I've done everything that I've wanted to do in life now. I've seen the world, got married and had two beautiful kids and I'm eternally grateful for that - but I just don't want to get old and suffer continued ill health anymore.

 

I'm only in my mid forties but my health has been deteriorating for the last five or so years following major surgery. Even with the miracles of modern science I'm only going to get worse and I can't face the thought of being immobile, incontinent and relying on others to help me function. The thought makes me sick and I sort of want to quit while I'm still relatively active.

 

The fact is that I'm wasting away and feel like a rack of bones. My weight has dropped to 8 stone and I've just got no energy for it anymore. I try to play golf but recently I've had to quit after 9 holes as I'm just exhausted or I've injured something. My joints are fvcked and I can barely swing a club sometimes.

 

My medication makes me drowsy and my 'zombie like' state makes working pretty tough. I'm lucky that I work from home but my daily 'cat naps' are becoming more frequent and I could easily just spend the day in bed if I could. I'm up all night with my condition and never get more than a few hours sleep at a time. I wish I could get 8 hours solid sleep like 'normal' people.

 

I try to play with the kids but they knacker me out. We're going back to Disney Orlando in August for the final time (I've massively overspent and can't really afford it) but I know I won't have the energy to walk around theme parks for two weeks solid.

 

I know this sounds like a 'woe is me' post and I'm not looking for sympathy or anything, but I've had enough of it all really.

 

I'm convinced the after life will be a better place for me and I long to exist pain free again. I miss my health and the simple things I used to be able to do like go on the piss, eat crappy food and travel around watching City play. I've had a great life and many happy memories so I'm not complaining, but the future isn't compelling enough for me and I don't look forward to things any longer.

 

Maybe it's a mid life crisis? I dunno. But I'm going back for counselling to give it another shot. Maybe I need to go back on anti-depressants again, but I can't be arsed with taking even more pills - I'm like a walking pharmacy as it is...

 

I just want my old life back I suppose, and I realise I've never really come to terms with my current set of circumstances. I've changed so much from the 'old me' and I don't like what I see in the mirror these days.

 

So there you go. I'm not sure I feel any better for posting this but I felt the need to, so I did.

 

Anyway, take care my fellow Foxes and cherish your health. Without it you're fvcked, so look after yourselves  

 

 

 

Izzy, I've just read this.

 

You ok, bud?

 

I'm aware I sound patronising as ****. But you and a couple of others on here literally dragged me back to life when I was ar my lowest point.

 

You know what I think of you and how grateful I am, you got a pm.

 

If you need a chat, hit me up anytime.

 

Please do man, you're a saint for the advice you've given on here x 

[Izzy]

13 hours ago, tom27111 said:

 

Izzy, I've just read this.

 

You ok, bud?

 

I'm aware I sound patronising as ****. But you and a couple of others on here literally dragged me back to life when I was ar my lowest point.

 

You know what I think of you and how grateful I am, you got a pm.

 

If you need a chat, hit me up anytime.

 

Please do man, you're a saint for the advice you've given on here x 

Hi Tom,

 

Cheers for the PM, that's really good of you.

 

I'm O.K. thanks mate. Back on the meds, early days but hopefully I'll get the serotonin boost I need from them.

 

My counselling sessions have started again and I feel better for being able to talk stuff out. 

 

The big issue for me is still my health. I've realised that healthy body = healthy mind for me, so I'm doing all I can to try and stay fit and put some weight on. 

 

Got myself an exercise bike and some free weights to try and build a bit of muscle and get more energy, so we'll see how that goes.

 

And a bit busier work-wise, so spending more time focusing on my clients needs rather than feeling sorry for myself.

 

One day at a time for me. Up's and down's. The good weather helps so long may that continue.

 

It's good to see you back on form mate. You had us all worried at one stage but it sounds like you've turned the corner so stay strong bud  

 

[tom27111]

11 hours ago, Izzy Muzzett said:

Hi Tom,

 

Cheers for the PM, that's really good of you.

 

I'm O.K. thanks mate. Back on the meds, early days but hopefully I'll get the serotonin boost I need from them.

 

My counselling sessions have started again and I feel better for being able to talk stuff out. 

 

The big issue for me is still my health. I've realised that healthy body = healthy mind for me, so I'm doing all I can to try and stay fit and put some weight on. 

 

Got myself an exercise bike and some free weights to try and build a bit of muscle and get more energy, so we'll see how that goes.

 

And a bit busier work-wise, so spending more time focusing on my clients needs rather than feeling sorry for myself.

 

One day at a time for me. Up's and down's. The good weather helps so long may that continue.

 

It's good to see you back on form mate. You had us all worried at one stage but it sounds like you've turned the corner so stay strong bud  

 

 

Stay strong yourself. I'm pretty sure that I can speak for everyone on here and say that we're all with you.

 

It's tough, really tough. But we're all here bud x

[spacemunky]

13 hours ago, Izzy Muzzett said:

 

The big issue for me is still my health. I've realised that healthy body = healthy mind for me, so I'm doing all I can to try and stay fit and put some weight on. 

 

Got myself an exercise bike and some free weights to try and build a bit of muscle and get more energy, so we'll see how that goes.

 

 

Very important and something I've failed to do for quite some time. 

 

Always felt better when I felt a bit stronger, but when you get feeling down it's hard to get that motivation.

[brucey]

Small rant.
Been depressed as long as I can remember, since the age of 11. Was deeply suicidal for many years as a teenager. 
Never sought help, never properly grew out of it. It's just become a chronic thing now.
I go through the motions but I haven't properly felt any emotions for a decade now.
I keep myself in a constant state of mild sleep deprivation to numb everything down. 
My family is in a different country, I avoid speaking to them, because they are a source of emotional pain.
Being a constant ball of misery in childhood and adolescence, I never learned to make small talk or socialise properly.
I've never dated anyone in my life and I'm in my mid-20s. That seems to be a problem.
I live 5 mins' walk away from work. When I get home I just lie in bed and get on the internet. Same for the weekends and holidays. 
I hate exercise, I hate moving, I hate travelling. I have my groceries delivered because I can't be bothered to leave the house.
I really should go get some therapy and/or tablets. I wouldn't mind trying it. But I've told myself that for years.
But no, I just can't make myself be arsed. I don't have the motivation to do it. 
I've been in the UK for 6 years, and haven't bothered registering with a GP yet. Have to apply for leave weeks in advance to go.
It's such a hassle. Life is just such a hassle in general. 

[ozleicester]

3 hours ago, brucey said:

Small rant.
Been depressed as long as I can remember, since the age of 11. Was deeply suicidal for many years as a teenager. 
Never sought help, never properly grew out of it. It's just become a chronic thing now.
I go through the motions but I haven't properly felt any emotions for a decade now.
I keep myself in a constant state of mild sleep deprivation to numb everything down. 
My family is in a different country, I avoid speaking to them, because they are a source of emotional pain.
Being a constant ball of misery in childhood and adolescence, I never learned to make small talk or socialise properly.
I've never dated anyone in my life and I'm in my mid-20s. That seems to be a problem.
I live 5 mins' walk away from work. When I get home I just lie in bed and get on the internet. Same for the weekends and holidays. 
I hate exercise, I hate moving, I hate travelling. I have my groceries delivered because I can't be bothered to leave the house.
I really should go get some therapy and/or tablets. I wouldn't mind trying it. But I've told myself that for years.
But no, I just can't make myself be arsed. I don't have the motivation to do it. 
I've been in the UK for 6 years, and haven't bothered registering with a GP yet. Have to apply for leave weeks in advance to go.
It's such a hassle. Life is just such a hassle in general. 

Hey mate, sorry to hear that, but good that you can identify and talk about it. 

 

Can i suggest you get to a GP and tell them all of the above... they CAN HELP!

 

If you had a busted leg or  ill health or whatever youd get in and let them help you... you need to do the same for your mental health. Good luck, bbut try to have a chat with a GP, it cant hurt

[Izzy]

8 hours ago, brucey said:

Small rant.
Been depressed as long as I can remember, since the age of 11. Was deeply suicidal for many years as a teenager. 
Never sought help, never properly grew out of it. It's just become a chronic thing now.
I go through the motions but I haven't properly felt any emotions for a decade now.
I keep myself in a constant state of mild sleep deprivation to numb everything down. 
My family is in a different country, I avoid speaking to them, because they are a source of emotional pain.
Being a constant ball of misery in childhood and adolescence, I never learned to make small talk or socialise properly.
I've never dated anyone in my life and I'm in my mid-20s. That seems to be a problem.
I live 5 mins' walk away from work. When I get home I just lie in bed and get on the internet. Same for the weekends and holidays. 
I hate exercise, I hate moving, I hate travelling. I have my groceries delivered because I can't be bothered to leave the house.
I really should go get some therapy and/or tablets. I wouldn't mind trying it. But I've told myself that for years.
But no, I just can't make myself be arsed. I don't have the motivation to do it. 
I've been in the UK for 6 years, and haven't bothered registering with a GP yet. Have to apply for leave weeks in advance to go.
It's such a hassle. Life is just such a hassle in general. 

I can relate to most of that mate. Modern life is one big mutherfvcking hassle for me too.

 

Sorry I've got no encouraging words of advice for you - I'll leave that to others on this thread who are in a more positive place than I am right now (and I've realised that most people end up just pleasing themselves anyway)

 

I hope you feel better for having a rant - I know I did by doing the same a few weeks ago.

 

I guess the question for you is "why change?" By posting on here it suggests that maybe you're starting to consider doing something about it.

 

You say "I really should" get therapy/tablets yet you can't be arsed to do so. We can all try and kick you up the arse to do it but ultimately you've got to kick yourself up the arse I guess. If you "wouldn't mind trying it" then try it. You'll never know unless you try.

 

And tablets/therapy might not work for you (but the odds are that they will). Ultimately you need enough of a reason to change otherwise you'll continue in your constant state of numbness.

 

For me, my reason to change was purely for my young kids. I fvckin hate myself but my kids love me so I went back on the pills and saw my therapist again just so I can be a better Dad for them.

 

I hope you find enough of a reason to change or else you'll just continue 'as is'. 

 

I wish you well fella...

 

 

 

 

Edited 3 June 2017 by Izzy Muzzett

[Realist Guy In The Room]

3 hours ago, brucey said:

Small rant.
Been depressed as long as I can remember, since the age of 11. Was deeply suicidal for many years as a teenager. 
Never sought help, never properly grew out of it. It's just become a chronic thing now.
I go through the motions but I haven't properly felt any emotions for a decade now.
I keep myself in a constant state of mild sleep deprivation to numb everything down. 
My family is in a different country, I avoid speaking to them, because they are a source of emotional pain.
Being a constant ball of misery in childhood and adolescence, I never learned to make small talk or socialise properly.
I've never dated anyone in my life and I'm in my mid-20s. That seems to be a problem.
I live 5 mins' walk away from work. When I get home I just lie in bed and get on the internet. Same for the weekends and holidays. 
I hate exercise, I hate moving, I hate travelling. I have my groceries delivered because I can't be bothered to leave the house.
I really should go get some therapy and/or tablets. I wouldn't mind trying it. But I've told myself that for years.
But no, I just can't make myself be arsed. I don't have the motivation to do it. 
I've been in the UK for 6 years, and haven't bothered registering with a GP yet. Have to apply for leave weeks in advance to go.
It's such a hassle. Life is just such a hassle in general. 

Would you speak to a therapist on the phone?

 

If so, that would be the first thing to do.

 

Start from lying on your bed speaking to someone and then hopefully it develops from there.

[Crinklyfox]

5 hours ago, brucey said:

Small rant.
Been depressed as long as I can remember, since the age of 11. Was deeply suicidal for many years as a teenager. 
Never sought help, never properly grew out of it. It's just become a chronic thing now.
I go through the motions but I haven't properly felt any emotions for a decade now.
I keep myself in a constant state of mild sleep deprivation to numb everything down. 
My family is in a different country, I avoid speaking to them, because they are a source of emotional pain.
Being a constant ball of misery in childhood and adolescence, I never learned to make small talk or socialise properly.
I've never dated anyone in my life and I'm in my mid-20s. That seems to be a problem.
I live 5 mins' walk away from work. When I get home I just lie in bed and get on the internet. Same for the weekends and holidays. 
I hate exercise, I hate moving, I hate travelling. I have my groceries delivered because I can't be bothered to leave the house.
I really should go get some therapy and/or tablets. I wouldn't mind trying it. But I've told myself that for years.
But no, I just can't make myself be arsed. I don't have the motivation to do it. 
I've been in the UK for 6 years, and haven't bothered registering with a GP yet. Have to apply for leave weeks in advance to go.
It's such a hassle. Life is just such a hassle in general. 

That's not a rant, that's taking a step towards recovery.  You don't like where you are and want life to be better.  Wanting to be better is the necessary first step to improving your situation.

 

When someone is depressed even a little effort towards recovery can seem overwhelming and not worth the effort.  Depression brings about physiological changes that prevent pleasure being felt for activities that would be pleasurable for someone who isn't depressed.  This is not a permanent situation for most of us and can be addressed by medication.  So it is essential that if you are to recover, and you most likely can improve your current situation, that you seek medical help.  Please see a GP or another medical professional.  When I suffered from depression I had no idea that the pills prescribed could have such an effect, but after a month I was in a much better place and was able to come off them.  Depending upon your condition, you may need a shorter or longer period of time. 

 

Eventually you'll have to address the root cause of your depression but it's better to do that from a position of strength when you are physically well.  Everyone's situation is different.  For me a major source of the problem was that I spent too much time concentrating on the bad things in my life and ignoring the good.  For instance if you're physically well apart from the depression that's great - you may take your physical health for granted (I did in my twenties) but believe me when it's gone it's a huge loss.

 

It's easy to think that you have problems that cannot be overcome and that you're alone, but just read through this thread and you'll see that it isn't true.  There are posters on here that have been depressed and recovered, and if you read enough of their posts you'll find some that strike a chord with you.  You're in a bad place now but you don't have to stay there, there is a path out, let others guide you to it.  It may seem like it's too much effort but take it one step at a time.  A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.  Good luck and keep posting to let us know how you're doing.

 

 

[Nick]

5 hours ago, brucey said:

Small rant.
Been depressed as long as I can remember, since the age of 11. Was deeply suicidal for many years as a teenager. 
Never sought help, never properly grew out of it. It's just become a chronic thing now.
I go through the motions but I haven't properly felt any emotions for a decade now.
I keep myself in a constant state of mild sleep deprivation to numb everything down. 
My family is in a different country, I avoid speaking to them, because they are a source of emotional pain.
Being a constant ball of misery in childhood and adolescence, I never learned to make small talk or socialise properly.
I've never dated anyone in my life and I'm in my mid-20s. That seems to be a problem.
I live 5 mins' walk away from work. When I get home I just lie in bed and get on the internet. Same for the weekends and holidays. 
I hate exercise, I hate moving, I hate travelling. I have my groceries delivered because I can't be bothered to leave the house.
I really should go get some therapy and/or tablets. I wouldn't mind trying it. But I've told myself that for years.
But no, I just can't make myself be arsed. I don't have the motivation to do it. 
I've been in the UK for 6 years, and haven't bothered registering with a GP yet. Have to apply for leave weeks in advance to go.
It's such a hassle. Life is just such a hassle in general. 

Go to your GP - get registered! Do it on Monday! There's a world out there that's better with you influencing it buddy. There are so many people who would benefit from your experience. 

[Raj]

Sorry to hear about some of you.

All I can say is I seek solace in exercise.

If all you can do is 5-10 mins,just do that.

Do something you enjoy but try and do it outside and in the fresh air. If you ain't done anything for years even 5-10 mins will be tough to start. 

Little steps and all that,but the mental state will hopefully improve by the physical.

[Foxxed]

10 hours ago, brucey said:

Small rant.
Been depressed as long as I can remember, since the age of 11. Was deeply suicidal for many years as a teenager. 
Never sought help, never properly grew out of it. It's just become a chronic thing now.
I go through the motions but I haven't properly felt any emotions for a decade now.
I keep myself in a constant state of mild sleep deprivation to numb everything down. 
My family is in a different country, I avoid speaking to them, because they are a source of emotional pain.
Being a constant ball of misery in childhood and adolescence, I never learned to make small talk or socialise properly.
I've never dated anyone in my life and I'm in my mid-20s. That seems to be a problem.
I live 5 mins' walk away from work. When I get home I just lie in bed and get on the internet. Same for the weekends and holidays. 
I hate exercise, I hate moving, I hate travelling. I have my groceries delivered because I can't be bothered to leave the house.
I really should go get some therapy and/or tablets. I wouldn't mind trying it. But I've told myself that for years.
But no, I just can't make myself be arsed. I don't have the motivation to do it. 
I've been in the UK for 6 years, and haven't bothered registering with a GP yet. Have to apply for leave weeks in advance to go.
It's such a hassle. Life is just such a hassle in general. 

Really sorry to hear you're going through all that mate. I'll echo what others have said though. You should register with your GP. 

 

It may not solve everything, and it may be a hassle, but it may help - it seems somewhat unfair for you to suffer like that when there's help available which, although won't solve everything, may make things a little better. It may be a hassle to do, but it may be a worthwhile hassle.

 

There are websites telling you your nearest GP. Go with proof of address - a utility bill. Either go today, on Sunday or after work. Ask to register. They'll be loads of bullshit forms to fill it, but if you have any questions just ask them to help. Once your registration has been confirmed (you may need to ring them to chase them up like I had to) then book an appointment. Tell your employer you're ill and need the time to see your doctor.

 

Sorry most of that is a command. But really - it seems wrong to suffer when you could receive some help, some advice. Besides, I enjoy your posts! I hope things get a little better - walking to the supermarket may be a small improvement too. The whole healthy body healthy mind is a cliche but unfortunately true.

[HybridFox]

5 hours ago, Crinklyfox said:

Eventually you'll have to address the root cause of your depression but it's better to do that from a position of strength when you are physically well.  Everyone's situation is different.  For me a major source of the problem was that I spent too much time concentrating on the bad things in my life and ignoring the good.  For instance if you're physically well apart from the depression that's great - you may take your physical health for granted (I did in my twenties) but believe me when it's gone it's a huge loss.

 

Can totally relate to this from my own battles.

When my depression started, I was physically quite fit. But slowly I let my mental state take over and lacked the desire to do anything. Ended up putting on tons of weight. Which naturally, made me feel even worse and became paranoid/body conscious on top of what I was already going through.

Still not recovered completely, but I am trying.

 

I totally echo what you say. If you can keep yourself physically well, you've won half the battle 

 

[foxfanazer]

Sorry to hear so many of you are struggling. Feel myself slipping back into it sometimes but I think I've got better at spotting the signs and somehow manage to drag myself out of it. Not suggesting it's that easy. 

 

I've got so much to be thankful for but sometimes I feel like I have nothing. It's a cruel illness in that sense. I agree with the posters that have said about getting as much exercise as you can manage 

[spacemunky]

19 hours ago, foxfanazer said:

Sorry to hear so many of you are struggling. Feel myself slipping back into it sometimes but I think I've got better at spotting the signs and somehow manage to drag myself out of it. Not suggesting it's that easy. 

 

I've got so much to be thankful for but sometimes I feel like I have nothing. It's a cruel illness in that sense. I agree with the posters that have said about getting as much exercise as you can manage 

I know that feeling of nothing.

 

Had some friends, but always seem to push people away.

. 

It's hard getting up in the morning and going to work when there's nothing else there. 

 

 

[ozleicester]

6 minutes ago, spacemunky said:

I know that feeling of nothing.

 

Had some friends, but always seem to push people away.

. 

It's hard getting up in the morning and going to work when there's nothing else there. 

 

 

Im a long way away already.. if you wanna chat

[spacemunky]

8 hours ago, ozleicester said:

Im a long way away already.. if you wanna chat

Thanks.

 

Last night was just one of those nights for me.

 

Good to have this place to listen to my drunken sad story 

[sylofox]

On ‎05‎/‎06‎/‎2017 at 12:50, spacemunky said:

Thanks.

 

Last night was just one of those nights for me.

 

Good to have this place to listen to my drunken sad story 

sounds like me last night.

 

I'm not going into great detail just to let anyone know that seen my topic last night I'm still with you.

 

I guess after last night I sort of know what it feels like to be a cov fan  

[Izzy]

19 minutes ago, sylofox said:

sounds like me last night.

 

I'm not going into great detail just to let anyone know that seen my topic last night I'm still with you.

 

I guess after last night I sort of know what it feels like to be a cov fan  

Good to hear you're still with us mate, you had us all a bit concerned!

 

Glad you're ok mate. Thanks for updating us 

[Finnegan]

Paranoia is a shitter.